I haven't seen Barbados...
"With no loving’ in our souls
And no money in our coats,
You can’t say we’re satisfied…"
Well, this turned out to be the weekend of pure shit. Never sacrifice anything for anyone anymore, you just end up being fucked in the end.
Is it really such a hard thing to call someone and let him or her know where you are? If you call them at 3:30 and tell them you’ll be home in 20-30 minutes, how does that turn into 2 hours? How come I have to call someone I don’t trust; that I didn’t want you to really be with in the first place and hope you wouldn’t be with for long, to hear from you? Do you not hear me? Does what I say not matter? Then calling you, I’m not supposed to be angry, right? Of course not, but when I am, I’m the bad one? Don’t feed me elaborate stories. I don’t need them, nor does it make things better. I’m not like you; I keep my word it’s not "okay" just to go against something you’ve promised someone.
Shut up.
Two words I hate more than anything, especially when directed at someone you care for. Two words that I will listen to and not dare to utter any words toward that person. You want me to not speak with you, I won’t. I’m not the kind of person to take shit like that, especially from you, someone who cares for me? I haven’t believed that in a while. You’re so different. I’m so confused, I don’t know how many chances I could give. How many times I can write to you, or cry for that matter. I’ve tried so much for you, and I feel I don't get anything back to begin with. Are you still there? I’m not sure anymore. I don’t know how long I need to hang around for you to notice me. I breathe too you know…
So, I’m here at Liset’s. She’s watching Anime and well, it just finished! Oh my God, this is the best part of this weekend. Awaiting Kristine’s arrival; my girls seem to be there at the best times. I hate Anime. I hate this weekend. I hate you. So much homework I should have brought with me. You’re too much work for me sometimes. I don’t need this if I get nothing from it. I just learn to hide what I feel.
Liset: "We’ll watch the other ending later."
Big Dick Hernandez: " Yeah, when the hater leaves."
That’s funny as fuck
I hate Inuyasha.
Don’t try and fix things…
-Beth