Colorful Leis
OK, so it has been a LONG time since I've updated. I apologize!
Let's see...what's happened since Feb. 19th??? Gosh...
Well, I'll start with today and go as far back as I can.
So today was one of those self soul-searching days. I went to see the school music counselor about class requirements for my music minor, and it turned into a 'I have no idea what I want to do'/'I want to do everything' session. She had a lot of good advice, and now I'll be talking to about 5 different counselors and bumming thoughts off my past mentors, trying to figure out how to change the world, reward myself, do EVERYTHING while maintaining my sanity and humility and whatnot. I'm utterly confused, but also glad to know that I have so many good options ahead of me. The biggest and hardest decision is going to be picking and choosing what I become certified in. This realization makes me hate college even more. My mom once told me that if I wanted something bad enough, I would work my way up the ladder to get there, no matter how long it took. I hate that college is supposed to be the way to bypass many of the ladder rungs but only to a certain extent. I want to bypass the rungs on many different ladders because if I do it on one and not the others, it will be very difficult to maintain my stance on one ladder while I'm so far down on others, and I just don't want to let those opportunities go. I don't know.
Last night, OHHHHHHHHHHHH! What words to say!? Um, AMAZING! I went to the local gay club SPLASH and had a great time with the group there. The dance music was great, and I can't wait to do more of that as a stress release during the semester.
Now, the reason I went to the club in the first place was because I had a hard day yesterday - Calculus test, Physics quiz, and a philosophy paper due. I knew I'd need the relaxation. It's been extremely difficult playing catch up since the beginning of the semester and that emotional disaster, and all this confusion of questioning my career outlook and major has been happenening ever since those problems arose. Ay yi yi!
OHHHHHHHH...I went to see the play VIOLET performed on campus. Very good message! I recommend seeing it if it is ever possible. Speaking of seeing theatre, I've seen two movies in the past month that are MUST SEES, especially Gospel Roads crew! First one: RADIO with Cuba Gooding, Jr. & Ed Harris...I deem this another Gospel Roads theme movie (the other being Big Fish if I didn't mention it before). I also saw the PASSION of Christ. As much as this movie affected me, and I've always wanted to SEE what Christ went through, I want to see the movie again with a clear mind. I had school, relationships, and self-love issues floating around this first viewing, and I want to clear my head of those obstacles and watch it again with a completely open heart AND mind.
Well, I think I've addressed most of the biggest events from the past few weeks...I hope to write more often, but we'll see how that works out.
'Til later...
Let's see...what's happened since Feb. 19th??? Gosh...
Well, I'll start with today and go as far back as I can.
So today was one of those self soul-searching days. I went to see the school music counselor about class requirements for my music minor, and it turned into a 'I have no idea what I want to do'/'I want to do everything' session. She had a lot of good advice, and now I'll be talking to about 5 different counselors and bumming thoughts off my past mentors, trying to figure out how to change the world, reward myself, do EVERYTHING while maintaining my sanity and humility and whatnot. I'm utterly confused, but also glad to know that I have so many good options ahead of me. The biggest and hardest decision is going to be picking and choosing what I become certified in. This realization makes me hate college even more. My mom once told me that if I wanted something bad enough, I would work my way up the ladder to get there, no matter how long it took. I hate that college is supposed to be the way to bypass many of the ladder rungs but only to a certain extent. I want to bypass the rungs on many different ladders because if I do it on one and not the others, it will be very difficult to maintain my stance on one ladder while I'm so far down on others, and I just don't want to let those opportunities go. I don't know.
Last night, OHHHHHHHHHHHH! What words to say!? Um, AMAZING! I went to the local gay club SPLASH and had a great time with the group there. The dance music was great, and I can't wait to do more of that as a stress release during the semester.
Now, the reason I went to the club in the first place was because I had a hard day yesterday - Calculus test, Physics quiz, and a philosophy paper due. I knew I'd need the relaxation. It's been extremely difficult playing catch up since the beginning of the semester and that emotional disaster, and all this confusion of questioning my career outlook and major has been happenening ever since those problems arose. Ay yi yi!
OHHHHHHHH...I went to see the play VIOLET performed on campus. Very good message! I recommend seeing it if it is ever possible. Speaking of seeing theatre, I've seen two movies in the past month that are MUST SEES, especially Gospel Roads crew! First one: RADIO with Cuba Gooding, Jr. & Ed Harris...I deem this another Gospel Roads theme movie (the other being Big Fish if I didn't mention it before). I also saw the PASSION of Christ. As much as this movie affected me, and I've always wanted to SEE what Christ went through, I want to see the movie again with a clear mind. I had school, relationships, and self-love issues floating around this first viewing, and I want to clear my head of those obstacles and watch it again with a completely open heart AND mind.
Well, I think I've addressed most of the biggest events from the past few weeks...I hope to write more often, but we'll see how that works out.
'Til later...