Started my period today

[mslilly]

Um, so things are not going well for me, which is weird because most of the point of this e-mail is that in the mundane world, things are going too well. I'm in a very weird and difficult headspace right now, some of it possibly brought on by reading The Mists of Avalon, but a lot of it is just related to me and who I am

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[rainy_kate]

You know, you're pretty impressive to me. And, there's a lot of great advice on this board, but let me ask you something: Are the things like a clean house and austerity, and discipline really things that you value, or are they things that you know you should value

[rainy_kate]

When I asked myself about Austerity, I realized that saving was important, and giving, less so that not living in luxury
I mean MORE so.

[mslilly]

Hmm. You are right, these are important questions. Happily, I know that things like austerity, etc are truly things I value. I function better in those ways with a clearer appreciation of myself and the people I love

[tabbyfoo]

Wow. Because I have not lived your experiences, I would not have been able to put that context on it, but it makes sense. More than that, it puts a whole different perspective on Ryan's behavior for me. He experienced similar neglect, but without the siblings. So that shed some light for me, too.

I'm glad what I said helped.

[rainy_kate]

I just read through your reply twice, and I want to really thoughtfully process it.

Just know that I love you and that I think it takes a lot of bravery to face these things about yourself.

[mslilly]

Thanks.