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May 04, 2008 11:26

I am very seriously considering going into the Army Officer program. I basically interviewed with a recruiter for a 25 Bravo IT officer slot in Washington before Christmas, and I know I could have it if I could only lose these last few pounds. Anyway, I'm not asking for approval or recommendations about this.. it's a little more intricate, but not too much.

I scored a job at the Shipyard in a neat field, but I think the Army is right for me--I have been wrong in the past though. So, I am about to begin this job, and it requires a 22 week school, which I think is worth giving a shot first. I've been through all the crap to get my interim security clearance, shown up for interviews, etc. etc, all without any kind of pay. Now, the start date is at hand, and I have said to one of my friends that I would like to end up in the military, but I'm afraid something won't work out, like I'll find out at MEPS that I have flat feet, or something crazy like that.

I also can't stand my current job, and it has only been a joe job meant for something on the side. I have to get out, but my friend says it's unethical for me to go to the Shipyard with intent to leave. My argument is that it might work with the military, but if this ship sails with the Shipyard and I'm left standing with nothing, that's not good, and I am morally obliged to do this, because I want to get a house soon and be able to start a real life.

Does it seem at all unethical to potentially lead on the people at the Shipyard? I don't think so--they aren't making me any guarantees, and I haven't signed a binding contract, and as I said, I have no guarantee things will work out with the Army.

Also, I haven't heard back from the corporate office of the Postal Service in DC about the job. They are taking their time calling people back. They delayed doing interviews too. It's not very professional in my opinion, to tell people when you will call and then not call or write. I wrote them like, "Hey, folks--I'm on a timetable, I need an answer." I think what you experience before you start working somewhere is often a big indicator of how the job will be. I'm not very pleased at this point. I don't want them to call me the day before I start in Newport News with big news that, "Hey! You got the job! When can you start?!" I hate that.

Also, I still have two papers left I'm struggling to finish. I have 0 motivation left in my body, and 100 other things going on. It's so tough. I have to finish them today to have them in her box before she gets there Monday morning. That way she might think she left and missed the package just barely on Friday.. if of course she hasn't been in this weekend, which she probably has. I don't have any lame excuses left. I just want these done. I'm already out of the program--I just need closure now. God please help me.

Finally, as an endnote, my friend has also said that I vascillate between ideas and opportunities for my future, instead of just starting on something. What I don't understand is why people think there are jobs out there, good jobs, just waiting to be picked off a magic job tree. This area SUCKS for jobs, and you have to know someone to even get an interview. I'm tired of feeling so scrutinized. I know I took the high road in being a History major, but it was all with the intent of going to seminary. I'm following up on that, and I have decided I want to be a chaplain if those plans ever do come to fruition and I am able to finish school and be ordained. It's up to God what happens--I have put myself out there and sought Him about what to do. I don't like being judged for being 'indecisive'. Going through school and not taking out 100,000 in loans is not easy. His kids didn't go to school hardly at all, so he doesn't seem to understand you have to work crappy jobs while you go. I've decided the military or Shipyard would be an okay way to pay for school--BUT I'M NOT GOING TO PAY OFF LOANS FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE, and I am going to achieve my dreams. If that makes me 'indecisive' or 'lackadaisical', or whatever fairy word people want to ascribe to me, so be it. I've played my cards the best way I know how to play them. I don't do anything because I'm afraid. Nor do I join the Marines or the police force like his kids did, just because I'm not sure.

Waiting around for too long is bad, but I didn't do that. I went abroad, lived a dream, did AmeriCorps, which is a big part of who I am today, and I'm proud of all the things I've done. I've accomplished things and moved forward. He says I've missed out on blessings. Perhaps. Perhaps not. I think God is about to rock my socks off with the next big thing, and I want the last thing on my mind to be this crappy advice from this guy, and the idea that what I've done has been 'wasted time'. 'Cause it ain't true. Help me, Lord, to be a better listener when You speak. Please bring some sound advice and counsel into my life.
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