On the list of blind items.
I only really post on LJ now when I feel like I need to let something out into the universe that I don't really want anyone in particular to read. I know this, and this is why I am here. I have an entire catastrophe of emotions that I need to sort out and they're all in relation to people in particular that I only really wish knew how I feel. But I know that I will never have the conviction or the nerve to put into actual words to tell them these things that I am feeling.
I know that it did not, and does not, mean anything, but I need a little reminding every now and then. And I wish you'd make it easier to remember.
I know what you're thinking more than you think I do, and I know you more than you realize, and you know how? Because you're just like me.
This was ours. You could have at least made the effort to be a little bit imaginative with your moving on.
I know you don't want me to leave, and I know that you just want me to be happy. But the day that you told me to get real and start aiming for something lower than my dreams was the day that I realized that I was in this on my own. And that you're going to be one of those people that will get left behind.
It was so close to devastation, and it was so close to eating me up. But after you left for the second time, I realized that I had already left you in the past, where you belong.
And to you. You should have known better, hun.
I know that it did not, and does not, mean anything, but I need a little reminding every now and then. And I wish you'd make it easier to remember.
I know what you're thinking more than you think I do, and I know you more than you realize, and you know how? Because you're just like me.
This was ours. You could have at least made the effort to be a little bit imaginative with your moving on.
I know you don't want me to leave, and I know that you just want me to be happy. But the day that you told me to get real and start aiming for something lower than my dreams was the day that I realized that I was in this on my own. And that you're going to be one of those people that will get left behind.
It was so close to devastation, and it was so close to eating me up. But after you left for the second time, I realized that I had already left you in the past, where you belong.
Click to viewAnd to you. You should have known better, hun.