Like whoa
Alright seriously... it's 12:21am and I'm freaking out. How is it that everytime I'm challenged... whether in school, by friends, on dates, etc.. I just freak out? Can't I just be okay with myself and move right along? Apparently the right answer is NO. I can't. I bitch and moan every step of the way, fighting myself and every belief I've ever had. How I'm still alive through all this anxiety is a scientific mystery. I know I've never been that calm of a person... but seriously, I used to be much more easy going. I remember the days when I could actually make people laugh. I could sit around with a group of people and not be consciously trying to make myself as obsolete as possible. I used to not think about the awkward pauses that I was creating and instead fill them with quips, stories or random noises. When did I let fear take control? Ugh... and the more I think about it, the worse it gets. I thought recognizing your problem was supposed to be the first step in solving it? That's the last time I trust anything with the words "self-help" in the title.
Okay, deep breath. I know as soon as my midterm is over tomorrow I'm going to deny I ever felt this way. But then as soon as I find myself getting hot flashes and using the excuse "I'm just tired" instead of actually making decent conversation, I'll remember.
"One always finds one's burden again"
thank you Albert.
Okay, deep breath. I know as soon as my midterm is over tomorrow I'm going to deny I ever felt this way. But then as soon as I find myself getting hot flashes and using the excuse "I'm just tired" instead of actually making decent conversation, I'll remember.
"One always finds one's burden again"
thank you Albert.