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Soo just as I was ending my last post...he called......................... it was bittersweet. He wil be gone for 30 days. After that he will be in a halfway house. I'm sure he will be encouraged to stay away from me, soo I should listen to Gretchen, I will answer his phone calls. Now, I need to do this on my own.......I feel awful his parents might have seen our texts. I don't know which ones they would have read, but any with the context of selling/buying/getting together etc. I just feel awful, I don't need that for my early recovery. That stress I mean. Today I will stay sober. and for the next 30 days....for him, for ME. I will learn how to live with solitude and have it not be a burden of loneliness. Peace of mind will not be confused for boredom... Independence will not be confused as Self will. .... I can do this. Many have, many will, many won't, many try............I will do this.