good girl. bad choices.
i know that im a good girl, an honest person with morals, but i feel as if i have let all those morals go down the drain. i feel like half the person i use to be only a few months ago...what has happened to me?!
i feel as if i let everyone down constantly, im unreliable and i have made nothing but poor choices lately. what is new in my life to make me feel as if this is really me?? i think between my own depression and opinion of self worth and the lack of love i FEEL i am recieving i think that this has brown out of control. its all under my own control, it is up to me to take it head on. so whats the problem here?
im more unhappy now then i have been in so long. even my down and depressed feelings of uslessness and dispair dont beat the feelings that have over come me the past few weeks. every day i catch myself fighting back tears. tears of fright, hopelessness, dispair and lonelyness...
i dont know what to do with myself, and this is the case almost constantly...i think that this is gonna continue to be the case until i put forth the effort to change some things about my situation. i dont blame this on my mom, zack, parker, my dad, or anyone else. this is on me this time...and i realize it this time. thats why this time im gonna make sure there is a change in things. im gonna take care of this problem. i dunno...but ill find a way. promise.
peace. love. & eternal happiness...
<3
i feel as if i let everyone down constantly, im unreliable and i have made nothing but poor choices lately. what is new in my life to make me feel as if this is really me?? i think between my own depression and opinion of self worth and the lack of love i FEEL i am recieving i think that this has brown out of control. its all under my own control, it is up to me to take it head on. so whats the problem here?
im more unhappy now then i have been in so long. even my down and depressed feelings of uslessness and dispair dont beat the feelings that have over come me the past few weeks. every day i catch myself fighting back tears. tears of fright, hopelessness, dispair and lonelyness...
i dont know what to do with myself, and this is the case almost constantly...i think that this is gonna continue to be the case until i put forth the effort to change some things about my situation. i dont blame this on my mom, zack, parker, my dad, or anyone else. this is on me this time...and i realize it this time. thats why this time im gonna make sure there is a change in things. im gonna take care of this problem. i dunno...but ill find a way. promise.
peace. love. & eternal happiness...
<3