Yeah its me, I'm still alive sadly.
Hello angel, its been a while.
And you know what... here it goes. Another depressive frustrated rant. Look away my love, for you know nothing of what lies ahead.
Today I feel upbeat. I still feel like walking out in front of a bus though.
I'm so fucking lonely all the time, and not in a "I'm single" way because God knows I prefer my freedom and not having to consider someone else... But just because I feel like I have absolutely no one to talk to.
And you try and casually bring something up, but people would far rather talk about being happy and shit and its like... thats great! I'm incredibly happy that everyone else isnt as fucking miserable as me, but if you were we would be working it out, we would be TALKING about it. There would be comfort for you right here, no questions, no judgement.... just comfort. Will you listen?
Because I cant stand this feeling. Like no matter how bright the future seems, the curtain can be pulled across at any moment with no warning and then its pitch black and stuffy.
And we end up back here, talking to a computer screen because no one will listen.
Using caps lock to SCREAM because in real life we have to be silent.
Like one day, nothing will be missing because no body misses silence.
x
And you know what... here it goes. Another depressive frustrated rant. Look away my love, for you know nothing of what lies ahead.
Today I feel upbeat. I still feel like walking out in front of a bus though.
I'm so fucking lonely all the time, and not in a "I'm single" way because God knows I prefer my freedom and not having to consider someone else... But just because I feel like I have absolutely no one to talk to.
And you try and casually bring something up, but people would far rather talk about being happy and shit and its like... thats great! I'm incredibly happy that everyone else isnt as fucking miserable as me, but if you were we would be working it out, we would be TALKING about it. There would be comfort for you right here, no questions, no judgement.... just comfort. Will you listen?
Because I cant stand this feeling. Like no matter how bright the future seems, the curtain can be pulled across at any moment with no warning and then its pitch black and stuffy.
And we end up back here, talking to a computer screen because no one will listen.
Using caps lock to SCREAM because in real life we have to be silent.
Like one day, nothing will be missing because no body misses silence.
x