Bah
so i'm a little pissed. right now...my freaking beely button ring fell out andi don't know where it is. it was my dangly one which feel off the other day too and i lost the ball so i used the ball for my other one to wear it today but then it feel off so now i can only wear my orignal one which isn't that cute. grr...hmm o well. Omg i was so happy today at work my little girl in my starfish, hushi, finally stayed in the water for the whole time and didn't cry for her mom. She usually starts crying and ask for her mom and it breaks my heart so i let her get out. But today she was completely fine and was talking my ear off saying "when are we going to do frog" and "i love frog" which means speckle frog where they get to jump in. i was SO excited. i know i'm a dork but i love that part of my job my kids are so adorable, well most of them. Last night kinda sucked for me. well i was home by myself for most of the night because everyone was running around with michael so that wasn't bad but when they all came home was when it went bad. Like i was in my room getting dressed and my mom comes in and is there for two seconds when she has to " god kelly you really need to go on a diet" i was just upset by that, i mean i know i'm fat but she doesn't need to freaking tell me that my appearance is bad everytime she sees me. I can't ever remember a time when my mom has told me i was pretty or beautiful, never. So i told her that and started to tear up and she was like "oh i do not tell you you look bad all the time" but she does. whatever you would think i would be use to it by now. Then it's 10:00 and i'm trying to go to bed but my bed's on a slant because my dad took my headboard off because it makes so much noise everytime i move, but i ask him to help me fix it and he comes in and starts freakin out because my sleeping bag and blankets wear by or/ under my bed. He was like yelling and me and throwing my stuf so i was like nevermind i'll do it. and then he keeps going and chucks one of my blankets and it hits my dresser and knocks all my stuff on the floor it startled me and i started to cry. So i picked it all up and went into my bed and just balled. i don't why it upset me so but it did and just cried myself to sleep. well my mom came in and asked if i was ok and iwa like yes and then my dad came in and say he didn't even yell at me and i was like "I"M Ok!" i dunno and so i basially was just i tears for the next 30 minutes. And today was uhh...less than satisfactory. o well.