in the bell jar

[ms_annie]

he's so gone. my house is so empty. and not because his things aren't here, but because he isn't here.

i miss sunday breakfasts. i miss kisses good morning. i miss hugs. i miss his laugh. it's the cutest laugh in the world.

I tried going out last night with Mel, Glenn and Steve. nothing big. wasn't drunk. Just wanted desperately to get out of the house. had the worst anxiety attack i've ever had :(. Greg drove me home. distraction fail...

I hope he's settling in ok.

i should put my house back together.

.....right after i practise handstands.