Stuff and Junk
I don't feel like doing my work right now, hence livejournal posting!
There's a few things that I can't stop thinking about that I just want to take care of all day instead of being here. Consider this a non-traditional to-do list:
1- continue to work on my newest painting. This is an abstract acrylic on a 3x4 foot canvas (that I carried home on the trolley along with a 18x18 inch one tapped to the back of it, a bag full of new acrylic and oil paints, and two boxes of new bogo shoes). Must have been a hot mess! Anyway, this painting is for my friend's living room. I've only made a few paintings specifically for people.
2- connects with #1, get more paints at Blick. Ok, that new Blick store on Chestnut is so awesome, I can't even express. They have so many sales too... I spent 100$. But it was all stuff I needed. Anyway, I need two more colors or else I won't be able to successfully continue with my comissioned piece.
3- take care of Snoopy. My dachshund Snoopy woke me up last night at 5:30 a.m. She was crying and staring at me. The conversation went like this "whassamadda baby?" Snoopy whines and stares at me. "Show mama" Snoopy goes down her bed stairs, turns, looks at me, whines. I get up "oh man... ok girl, what do you want?" Snoopy trots into the living room, turns, looks at me, whines. "here I come... mama's up, whachu want?" Snoopy goes to the door, scratches, turns, looks at me, whines. "youwannagoout?" Snoopy prances in a circle. So I take her out, half asleep and she races to the grass where she proceeds to have the runs. Poor thing... imagine if you were in her shoes, beholden to someone having to walk you in that sickly state. I felt so bad for her. I stayed out there with her just in case there was more. After dragging her butt on the dewey grass for a little, she conceded and dragged me inside. TMI? Who cares!
4- this one is the most important. I got an e-mail from the professor at Rutgers who is reviewing my application and admissions documents. She said she is going to be reviewing them very soon. I hope I get in! Oh my goddess... this is all I want right now. I want to go to grad school so bad I can taste it! (tastes like cherry jello!) I love school; I love learning, I love writing papers, I love picking classes, I love doing crazy amounts of reading, I love big research projects, I love class discussions, I love work study, and most of all, I love how this is one more step to my absolute dream job of being a college professor. I can't wait to get in that classroom and inspire young adults to be more active and/or aware in and of politics. But first thing's first: get into grad school! I have a good feeling though, so hopefully it will work out this time!
This feeling of anticipation is actually pretty exciting when I consider the prospect that I actually might have a good chance of getting in and pursuing my dreams. It gives me a sense of drive and determination to realize that my life is not just something that reacts to outside events; it is something that I consciouslly guide in different directions. I am responsible, though not fully, through my actions for outcomes and situations in my life. I say "not fully" because some things are left to chance and consequence... some things are left up to the great goddess herself.
Anyway, enough existentialism! Third debates are tonight! How's that for being responsible for your actions?!
There's a few things that I can't stop thinking about that I just want to take care of all day instead of being here. Consider this a non-traditional to-do list:
1- continue to work on my newest painting. This is an abstract acrylic on a 3x4 foot canvas (that I carried home on the trolley along with a 18x18 inch one tapped to the back of it, a bag full of new acrylic and oil paints, and two boxes of new bogo shoes). Must have been a hot mess! Anyway, this painting is for my friend's living room. I've only made a few paintings specifically for people.
2- connects with #1, get more paints at Blick. Ok, that new Blick store on Chestnut is so awesome, I can't even express. They have so many sales too... I spent 100$. But it was all stuff I needed. Anyway, I need two more colors or else I won't be able to successfully continue with my comissioned piece.
3- take care of Snoopy. My dachshund Snoopy woke me up last night at 5:30 a.m. She was crying and staring at me. The conversation went like this "whassamadda baby?" Snoopy whines and stares at me. "Show mama" Snoopy goes down her bed stairs, turns, looks at me, whines. I get up "oh man... ok girl, what do you want?" Snoopy trots into the living room, turns, looks at me, whines. "here I come... mama's up, whachu want?" Snoopy goes to the door, scratches, turns, looks at me, whines. "youwannagoout?" Snoopy prances in a circle. So I take her out, half asleep and she races to the grass where she proceeds to have the runs. Poor thing... imagine if you were in her shoes, beholden to someone having to walk you in that sickly state. I felt so bad for her. I stayed out there with her just in case there was more. After dragging her butt on the dewey grass for a little, she conceded and dragged me inside. TMI? Who cares!
4- this one is the most important. I got an e-mail from the professor at Rutgers who is reviewing my application and admissions documents. She said she is going to be reviewing them very soon. I hope I get in! Oh my goddess... this is all I want right now. I want to go to grad school so bad I can taste it! (tastes like cherry jello!) I love school; I love learning, I love writing papers, I love picking classes, I love doing crazy amounts of reading, I love big research projects, I love class discussions, I love work study, and most of all, I love how this is one more step to my absolute dream job of being a college professor. I can't wait to get in that classroom and inspire young adults to be more active and/or aware in and of politics. But first thing's first: get into grad school! I have a good feeling though, so hopefully it will work out this time!
This feeling of anticipation is actually pretty exciting when I consider the prospect that I actually might have a good chance of getting in and pursuing my dreams. It gives me a sense of drive and determination to realize that my life is not just something that reacts to outside events; it is something that I consciouslly guide in different directions. I am responsible, though not fully, through my actions for outcomes and situations in my life. I say "not fully" because some things are left to chance and consequence... some things are left up to the great goddess herself.
Anyway, enough existentialism! Third debates are tonight! How's that for being responsible for your actions?!