Still pregnant and miserable
Hey there.
I'm still hanging in there. Feel miserable and HUGE though I haven't gained any weight in the last couple weeks. Still hanging out between 185 and 187, depending on the day. So that's between 12 and 15lb total gain.
I went to my appt. on Tuesday, they did a non-stress test (as they do twice a week), that was fine. Doc checked me out, I'm now dilated to 4. So I'mprogressing. He stripped my membranes, and I started contracting right away. I waited a few hours to see if they progressed - they did. So I went in to the hospital (after much figuring out of transportation and care of children). I was checked there by an intern who had to try TWICE to figure out how far I was dilated - even then the nurse had to help her out. They left, told me they'd be back to tell me the game plan. An HOUR later, the nurse comes in and tells me my doctor said to go home. I was having some serious contractions every 3 minutes for that whole time. They didn't all register on the monitor, but they were there. I was soooo upset! It took me a while to get out of the room, the nurses were cleaning up before I even left, getting ready for the next patient. I walked out of the room and saw my doctor standing at the front desk. He apparently didn't have time to talk to me. I know the nurse had said they were busy - all I can figure is they figured I could wait.
I was still contracting after I got home, so I called the doctor's office to see when he wants me to go in (since they send me home every time I'm there with contractions). The nurse called me back - the doctor says I wasn't in labor, don't go in until I'm in "severe pain".
I'm just really frustrated. The contractions did stop for the most part. But I'm in near constant pain whenever I move. The pressure is horrible, the baby thinks he has room to move, but he doesn't. So every time he moves, it hurts me. And right now he has the hiccups. Last night I cried myself to sleep. I'm afraid that by the time the baby is born, I'm not going to want to even see him or anything. I'm just so tired of all of it.
It doesn't help that I don't have my own vehicle, or that I have to coordinate care and pickup for my kids for doctor appointments twice a week. If there were any doubt in my mind about getting the tubal before, I have no doubts now. I am so DONE with having kids. I love all of 'em, but I couldn't do this again.
In other news, we picked a different name. He will be Caleb James Peters (not Cameron). Rick suggested it, I like it better.
I'm still hanging in there. Feel miserable and HUGE though I haven't gained any weight in the last couple weeks. Still hanging out between 185 and 187, depending on the day. So that's between 12 and 15lb total gain.
I went to my appt. on Tuesday, they did a non-stress test (as they do twice a week), that was fine. Doc checked me out, I'm now dilated to 4. So I'mprogressing. He stripped my membranes, and I started contracting right away. I waited a few hours to see if they progressed - they did. So I went in to the hospital (after much figuring out of transportation and care of children). I was checked there by an intern who had to try TWICE to figure out how far I was dilated - even then the nurse had to help her out. They left, told me they'd be back to tell me the game plan. An HOUR later, the nurse comes in and tells me my doctor said to go home. I was having some serious contractions every 3 minutes for that whole time. They didn't all register on the monitor, but they were there. I was soooo upset! It took me a while to get out of the room, the nurses were cleaning up before I even left, getting ready for the next patient. I walked out of the room and saw my doctor standing at the front desk. He apparently didn't have time to talk to me. I know the nurse had said they were busy - all I can figure is they figured I could wait.
I was still contracting after I got home, so I called the doctor's office to see when he wants me to go in (since they send me home every time I'm there with contractions). The nurse called me back - the doctor says I wasn't in labor, don't go in until I'm in "severe pain".
I'm just really frustrated. The contractions did stop for the most part. But I'm in near constant pain whenever I move. The pressure is horrible, the baby thinks he has room to move, but he doesn't. So every time he moves, it hurts me. And right now he has the hiccups. Last night I cried myself to sleep. I'm afraid that by the time the baby is born, I'm not going to want to even see him or anything. I'm just so tired of all of it.
It doesn't help that I don't have my own vehicle, or that I have to coordinate care and pickup for my kids for doctor appointments twice a week. If there were any doubt in my mind about getting the tubal before, I have no doubts now. I am so DONE with having kids. I love all of 'em, but I couldn't do this again.
In other news, we picked a different name. He will be Caleb James Peters (not Cameron). Rick suggested it, I like it better.