waiting for the weekend

[mrshmlooo]

hmm my day? well...last night actually i started thinking about things...i had gone to sleep around 9:30 and woken up at 11:30 thinking of them. I am seriously considering going into the coast guard...though that might sound weird to you..maybe not right off but possibly after college...what i was thinking about was the fact that i would lose contact with 95% of the people here easily, which i expected to happen anyway, but there are 2 or 3 people that i knew i would miss, and they alone are the reason for my reconsideration. Kuri, Tabitha, and lastly Michael...like i have stated in earlier entries i dont know what i would do without him.....i thought about that all day and then i finally asked him...if he would break it off if i went into the coast guard...and he told me no and that he would wait...which really relieved me. If it does happen, i will definetly be writing daily and calling. The good thing about it is that if i do....then when we see each other it will be amazing....anyway...it isnt that i wouldnt miss my friends.....but it seems like for most of them they wont have an issue missing me either...i mean- theres james and lately ive been blown off too many times by him (not just me either) and there's jillian- who...i love but not when she's around certain people...who else....travis- i wish him well but he's caused me a lot of hard times right now....hmm mom- no, i think ill be fine...so you see the extent of the close people in my life in which there are 2 that have conscious life that i will miss. Although i already miss kuri...things seem to be doing well for her, and i am glad. I would never go into this if i thought that i was never going to see my baby again...even though i know that would be throwing something away for love....i dont care...haha....but if i DO go into this right after high school, then i can retire at 23....which would be oh so great. 4 years of serving my country and i get money out of the ass. woot. We'll see how all of this unfolds...

Alright day i suppose.....but like i said.....im waiting for the weekend.....well not really for the whole weekend but for saturday...haha im excited about being able to eat out and hang out without having to worry about a thing.....i love you baby