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It's a little painful to think about things or people I have lost, or thought I have lost, so I prefer to not think about it. Granted it's pretty hard to do that, when well, I tend to think too much or overanalyse things (see the supposed benefits of being a literature student huh?) and so, it may seem like I do not care, or just can't be bothered?
It seems like I am pretty selfish eh? To do that in order not to get hurt, and in the process, maybe hurting the other parties? Or could it be that somehow, they just weren't important enough to me as I was to them (or vice versa la) so it doesn't occur to me? I know I priortise my friends, or as bff says, rank them, but... I don't know, it sounds pretty cruel to think of it that way..
I was just on msn with Johannes and I told him losing contact with everyone is currently one of my biggest fears... so perhaps continuing what I've always been doing seems the easiest way for me?) since it is inevitable that everyone would be going on with their own lives. (God, I really am a selfish biatch eh)
Kinda just like NS?
I don't want to fall into the girlfriends-breaking-up-with-their-pre-enlistee-boyfriends-cycle.
Well, not like I'd actually experience that but still..
Maybe, I'll post a little note to everyone as cjm has done... yea..
It seems like I am pretty selfish eh? To do that in order not to get hurt, and in the process, maybe hurting the other parties? Or could it be that somehow, they just weren't important enough to me as I was to them (or vice versa la) so it doesn't occur to me? I know I priortise my friends, or as bff says, rank them, but... I don't know, it sounds pretty cruel to think of it that way..
I was just on msn with Johannes and I told him losing contact with everyone is currently one of my biggest fears... so perhaps continuing what I've always been doing seems the easiest way for me?) since it is inevitable that everyone would be going on with their own lives. (God, I really am a selfish biatch eh)
Kinda just like NS?
I don't want to fall into the girlfriends-breaking-up-with-their-pre-enlistee-boyfriends-cycle.
Well, not like I'd actually experience that but still..
Maybe, I'll post a little note to everyone as cjm has done... yea..