I be Yours.
1. 'I have been so busy' is probably a huge understatement. It was more like I have been eating, breathing, drinking my work day and night for the past month. My projects were the first and last thing on my mind when I woke up and before I went to sleep; I even dreamed of them. So it seems that the greatest test of my relationship with Him is going to be my work. Everything was put on hold because of these huge projects, everything. My walk with Him, my time with my family, etc. What happens when I start my career? Unlike my projects, working is no ad hoc period with an end in sight, and if I am going to put aside everything else to be intensely involved in my work then am I going to lose sight of what the real purpose of my life is in the future? Which is to serve Him continually with a joyful heart?
2. This semester I recently made a new friends from my honours class, and whenever I meet a group of people I actually like, I spend time cultivating social capital by going out with them and hanging out with them, but these few months there has been a niggling and nagging voice at the back of my mind, which is that I am worrying a tad too much about seeking favour in the eyes of other people, when I should be basking gratefully in HIS favour that I already possess! It was an epiphany of sorts that I received one night and unfortunately despite this realization I did nothing much to change my behaviour.
I know for sure that 1. and 2. are also God's gifts - the fact that I really like my work, and new friends for whom I can be God's testimony and ambassador. So with that in mind, the question plaguing me now is, how? I want my heart to be Yours fully but it is a horridly errant heart with its own desires and motives. I cannot wait for my break from real life, when I retreat into a 6 day bible study camp, but after that I wonder if I am going to revert back to all of these.
2. This semester I recently made a new friends from my honours class, and whenever I meet a group of people I actually like, I spend time cultivating social capital by going out with them and hanging out with them, but these few months there has been a niggling and nagging voice at the back of my mind, which is that I am worrying a tad too much about seeking favour in the eyes of other people, when I should be basking gratefully in HIS favour that I already possess! It was an epiphany of sorts that I received one night and unfortunately despite this realization I did nothing much to change my behaviour.
I know for sure that 1. and 2. are also God's gifts - the fact that I really like my work, and new friends for whom I can be God's testimony and ambassador. So with that in mind, the question plaguing me now is, how? I want my heart to be Yours fully but it is a horridly errant heart with its own desires and motives. I cannot wait for my break from real life, when I retreat into a 6 day bible study camp, but after that I wonder if I am going to revert back to all of these.