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Blah! It's been a fairly good week thus far and I have too many cool things awaiting me for the rest of the week! So...... hm........ why did I just cry five minutes ago?
I have many, many things to be anxious for. My life is in this constant build right now. My soul, my heart, my mind, my thoughts, my energy... I know it's building up to something. I would be heartbroken if it ended anti-climatically, but the ride is really enjoyable, so I don't think I'd be bummed altogether..
I could be doing SO much more, though. I could be learning more, I could be conversing more, I could be exploring more... there's so much I want to do and could even do without all that extra necessities that are usually needed, such as excessive amounts of money. Traveling is near the top of my to do list, but when I have things at the tip of my fingertips for free, why don't I take advantage of that? Think Janie.. think of a good excuse this time..
I need this. I NEEEEEEEEEEED something. I need prayer. I need love. I need His love. I need my family. I need my friends............
I think, I think too much. I think everything is sooo unforunate that nothing will ever be worth it. My problem is, is that I thought being with him was worth everything. but its really pathetic when he makes me cry and i can't even begin to explain just how it happens.
I have many, many things to be anxious for. My life is in this constant build right now. My soul, my heart, my mind, my thoughts, my energy... I know it's building up to something. I would be heartbroken if it ended anti-climatically, but the ride is really enjoyable, so I don't think I'd be bummed altogether..
I could be doing SO much more, though. I could be learning more, I could be conversing more, I could be exploring more... there's so much I want to do and could even do without all that extra necessities that are usually needed, such as excessive amounts of money. Traveling is near the top of my to do list, but when I have things at the tip of my fingertips for free, why don't I take advantage of that? Think Janie.. think of a good excuse this time..
I need this. I NEEEEEEEEEEED something. I need prayer. I need love. I need His love. I need my family. I need my friends............
I think, I think too much. I think everything is sooo unforunate that nothing will ever be worth it. My problem is, is that I thought being with him was worth everything. but its really pathetic when he makes me cry and i can't even begin to explain just how it happens.