Week in review
Hi Everyone,
Well, I'm sober tonight so I figured it would be the perfect time for a journal entry.
Last week/This week, as usual I wrote down a set of goals to achieve, I achieved most of it, but there are still bits and pieces all over the place, I wanted to secure victory for the entire month, in one week.
Secure victory in terms of both financial and a little bit social as well, although, I knew Christmas and new years is coming up so I have plenty of time and chances to secure my social victories, it was primarily financial.
I failed, not because I didn't try hard enough, or I didn't put in enough effort or whatever else. Simply because things didn't go in my favour.
Things such as my father ending up in hospital on friday after collapsing. This basically took out my friday, as I spent most of the day driving around taking care of things for him, driving up and back to the hospital etc.
None of my jobs went entirely according to plan, and some necessary payments and deals are yet to be secured.
There's light at the end of the tunnel of course.
It's just a question of how much light, and how much longer I need to hang on before that much needed wave comes along to take me to shore metaphorically speaking.
I felt semi-fucked up on friday seeing my father in hospital, I didn't think I would be effected by it at all, and I most definetely thought I wouldn't cry. But for some reason I did.
I'm always the person focusing on the job at hand, always on a mission with objectives, and a degree of passion and strategy to ensure I succeed. But I forget day after day that I am human. I always have this idea set in my mind, that I should be beyond everything, and capable of pulling off the impossible, and so far, it has helped me achieve some really impressive things but it's sometimes made me a little insenitive to pain, and just the basics of life.
I've always been like this, I have some kind of refusal to let go on occassions. I went out friday night but, and I really enjoyed myself, mainly because I did let go, and not worry and just enjoy myself. Also, I had a few friends to hang around with, like that helped too but meh.
Anyway, so, the stars that I was born under apparently say for the week, I can get a bit more passionate and shouldn't worry about the wheel of commerce, I'll take it's advice to a certian extent, I'll try to focus on having a good time, but I'll still look at my key objectives and not lose face.
Tomorrow, I'll write down some new refined goals for the week, and I'll do the best I can with them. I'm sure I won't have two bad weeks in a row, things will only get easier from here.
I'll try to enjoy myself this coming week, and do as much of the financial goals as I can, but if things aren't in my favor then they aren't in my favor, no point swimming up stream.
Goodnight everyone.
Well, I'm sober tonight so I figured it would be the perfect time for a journal entry.
Last week/This week, as usual I wrote down a set of goals to achieve, I achieved most of it, but there are still bits and pieces all over the place, I wanted to secure victory for the entire month, in one week.
Secure victory in terms of both financial and a little bit social as well, although, I knew Christmas and new years is coming up so I have plenty of time and chances to secure my social victories, it was primarily financial.
I failed, not because I didn't try hard enough, or I didn't put in enough effort or whatever else. Simply because things didn't go in my favour.
Things such as my father ending up in hospital on friday after collapsing. This basically took out my friday, as I spent most of the day driving around taking care of things for him, driving up and back to the hospital etc.
None of my jobs went entirely according to plan, and some necessary payments and deals are yet to be secured.
There's light at the end of the tunnel of course.
It's just a question of how much light, and how much longer I need to hang on before that much needed wave comes along to take me to shore metaphorically speaking.
I felt semi-fucked up on friday seeing my father in hospital, I didn't think I would be effected by it at all, and I most definetely thought I wouldn't cry. But for some reason I did.
I'm always the person focusing on the job at hand, always on a mission with objectives, and a degree of passion and strategy to ensure I succeed. But I forget day after day that I am human. I always have this idea set in my mind, that I should be beyond everything, and capable of pulling off the impossible, and so far, it has helped me achieve some really impressive things but it's sometimes made me a little insenitive to pain, and just the basics of life.
I've always been like this, I have some kind of refusal to let go on occassions. I went out friday night but, and I really enjoyed myself, mainly because I did let go, and not worry and just enjoy myself. Also, I had a few friends to hang around with, like that helped too but meh.
Anyway, so, the stars that I was born under apparently say for the week, I can get a bit more passionate and shouldn't worry about the wheel of commerce, I'll take it's advice to a certian extent, I'll try to focus on having a good time, but I'll still look at my key objectives and not lose face.
Tomorrow, I'll write down some new refined goals for the week, and I'll do the best I can with them. I'm sure I won't have two bad weeks in a row, things will only get easier from here.
I'll try to enjoy myself this coming week, and do as much of the financial goals as I can, but if things aren't in my favor then they aren't in my favor, no point swimming up stream.
Goodnight everyone.