"This... they're beautiful, no? So many colours of sound, so many changing tones."
I've been up since 3 AM.
Couldn't fall back asleep. I had growing pains for some reason? And then my mind would NOT stop fretting about work, getting a new job, and the fact that I want to humiliate "pastor" Terry Jones today in Dearborn.
I haven't exercised all week because I've been sick. Sick enough to the point that I have to go home next weekend for a doctor's appointment that I DON'T want to go to. Seriously, this appointment is going to suck.
However, I weighed 130 last week, but didn't look like it at all. It was weird. I think it was because I didn't have any money last week at all, so I barely ate. Which isn't healthy, but I didn't have any money for food. I have some now though!!! Yay!
I am thinking about getting a Blogger instead of LiveJournal. I feel like LiveJournal is very limited in it's user-friendliness when it comes to outsiders. I would like to do some "serious" blogging and see if I could get somewhat of a following of readers. I've already begun writing down topics. I've found a lot of inspiration lately in how I view the world, and I'd like the world to know how I feel. I dunno, I feel like I would cross post here as well because I really love the community of LiveJournal and the resources that are available here.
Next week is the last week of classes before finals and then I come home!!! I'm thinking about getting a job as a receptionist. I would probably like that job a lot more than working at Meijer. And at a lot of places, the pay is better for more hours of work. I'm looking into it.
I keep freaking out because I feel like I have no marketable skills and I am not ready to be in the work force. I'm so scared about that. I am thinking of double-majoring in something else just so I can learn another skill that I can actually apply to life. I would like teaching, but getting that degree by itself is a nightmare. I would be here for another six years. Eff that.
Yesterday in my Death and Dying class we talked about doctor-assisted suicide. There is a law in Oregon that allows this under pretty reasonable conditions. One of them is that the person cannot be depressed. So we started on the topic of depression, and everyone was talking about it like they knew what it was like even though they kept saying, "I don't have depression, but..." I'm glad I was on my medication or else I would have either cried or yelled at them. My patience was wearing very thin in that class yesterday.
There is nothing very fun in this post. I'm sorry. Here! Have a fun gif!
Or two
Couldn't fall back asleep. I had growing pains for some reason? And then my mind would NOT stop fretting about work, getting a new job, and the fact that I want to humiliate "pastor" Terry Jones today in Dearborn.
I haven't exercised all week because I've been sick. Sick enough to the point that I have to go home next weekend for a doctor's appointment that I DON'T want to go to. Seriously, this appointment is going to suck.
However, I weighed 130 last week, but didn't look like it at all. It was weird. I think it was because I didn't have any money last week at all, so I barely ate. Which isn't healthy, but I didn't have any money for food. I have some now though!!! Yay!
I am thinking about getting a Blogger instead of LiveJournal. I feel like LiveJournal is very limited in it's user-friendliness when it comes to outsiders. I would like to do some "serious" blogging and see if I could get somewhat of a following of readers. I've already begun writing down topics. I've found a lot of inspiration lately in how I view the world, and I'd like the world to know how I feel. I dunno, I feel like I would cross post here as well because I really love the community of LiveJournal and the resources that are available here.
Next week is the last week of classes before finals and then I come home!!! I'm thinking about getting a job as a receptionist. I would probably like that job a lot more than working at Meijer. And at a lot of places, the pay is better for more hours of work. I'm looking into it.
I keep freaking out because I feel like I have no marketable skills and I am not ready to be in the work force. I'm so scared about that. I am thinking of double-majoring in something else just so I can learn another skill that I can actually apply to life. I would like teaching, but getting that degree by itself is a nightmare. I would be here for another six years. Eff that.
Yesterday in my Death and Dying class we talked about doctor-assisted suicide. There is a law in Oregon that allows this under pretty reasonable conditions. One of them is that the person cannot be depressed. So we started on the topic of depression, and everyone was talking about it like they knew what it was like even though they kept saying, "I don't have depression, but..." I'm glad I was on my medication or else I would have either cried or yelled at them. My patience was wearing very thin in that class yesterday.
There is nothing very fun in this post. I'm sorry. Here! Have a fun gif!
Or two