There wasn't an anhydrous lacrimal gland in the house...
If I had one wish that would come true, I would wish for a bipolar/depression test that is more like a pregnancy test than a mental guantlet with the psychiatrist.
I've been beginning to wonder if I'm bipolar again...I was supposed to go see the counselor last spring, but with a lot of Austin bullshit, I never got around to it.
How is it that I can think the exact same thought 15 minutes apart from eachother, and be anxious about it one time, and totally excited about it another time. It just doesn't make sense...
I feel a more intense version of this before I perform. One second, I am shaky and excited to go out there, and less than a minute later, I am calm almost to the point of boredom...I don't get it, but I wish I would pick one or the other...prefferably somewhere in the middle.
The thought that I can't decide if I'm excited or just scared about. I'm traveling this year...a lot...a whole lot. When I talked with Jaclyn about it, she said that I am really lucky...and I know I am...but it just scares the shit out of me...having to be so perfect all of the time...having to meet new people all the time...being put out on the line...all of the time. Am I really cut out for all of this? This year will sort of force me to figure out a lot about my character...and I just hope that from there, I can figure out what path to take...maybe JC will help me. haha.
I've been beginning to wonder if I'm bipolar again...I was supposed to go see the counselor last spring, but with a lot of Austin bullshit, I never got around to it.
How is it that I can think the exact same thought 15 minutes apart from eachother, and be anxious about it one time, and totally excited about it another time. It just doesn't make sense...
I feel a more intense version of this before I perform. One second, I am shaky and excited to go out there, and less than a minute later, I am calm almost to the point of boredom...I don't get it, but I wish I would pick one or the other...prefferably somewhere in the middle.
The thought that I can't decide if I'm excited or just scared about. I'm traveling this year...a lot...a whole lot. When I talked with Jaclyn about it, she said that I am really lucky...and I know I am...but it just scares the shit out of me...having to be so perfect all of the time...having to meet new people all the time...being put out on the line...all of the time. Am I really cut out for all of this? This year will sort of force me to figure out a lot about my character...and I just hope that from there, I can figure out what path to take...maybe JC will help me. haha.