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So today, I'm feeling a lot better. I'm still repulsed, but I'm over the bulk of the bitching. Thos transition into who knows what will take time. After all, I don't even know what I want. Although I don't want to be gay, I'm not gonna repress myself by forcing myself to like women. All I can say is that, honestly, I haven't given it a chance. But I don't even know if I want to do that. As of right now, I'm feeling very...asexual.
I took the first step last night by deleting my Downelink profile. In case you were wondering if I deleted you as a friend, I deleted myself. The next step is to skip gay pride in NYC, including the big party that I'd been looking forward one year to attend, and instead play in a two-day volleyball tournament scheduled for the same weekend. After all, I don't have much pride in being gay except for the good friends I've made along the way. You guys know who you are.
When this all works out a few months from now, I'll look back at my nightmarish experiences with the two people in the gay community who have disappointed me dearly and caused me to lose faith and look back at it positively. Although they have severely wronged me, these are the two people who have prompted me to make drastic changes in my lifestyle.
I took the first step last night by deleting my Downelink profile. In case you were wondering if I deleted you as a friend, I deleted myself. The next step is to skip gay pride in NYC, including the big party that I'd been looking forward one year to attend, and instead play in a two-day volleyball tournament scheduled for the same weekend. After all, I don't have much pride in being gay except for the good friends I've made along the way. You guys know who you are.
When this all works out a few months from now, I'll look back at my nightmarish experiences with the two people in the gay community who have disappointed me dearly and caused me to lose faith and look back at it positively. Although they have severely wronged me, these are the two people who have prompted me to make drastic changes in my lifestyle.