*Funny You Should Say That*
I just feel like writing. So here goes. It's funny what I see and hear from other people. Its also funny to see what others won't say to your face cause they're too chicken to say what they're feeling. Ya know what else? When people complain about certain things but don't do a fucking thing about them to change whats really going on. Maybe they really just don't give a shit, and they just want to make you feel bad for some sick selfish reason. Quite frankly, I could give a rats ass whats really going on in their heads and what they really think of me. When I do open myself up and tell them everything, I get nothing in return. Weird isn't it? Yeah. I thought so too. And somehow, I'm in the wrong when I don't know when and where shit is going down. How am I supposed to know what you've been up to if you don't talk to me and tell me what you've been doing.....yeah. I don't really know where all this is coming from but I think it's been building up inside of me for awhile.
There is so much I want to write in here but can't put it in words. Like Dave for instance. I just love him so much.....I'm dreading the next weeks because the closer we get, the closer the time comes that my baby has to leave me and I have to leave him. There is something about him, when he's around I am so much happier than I was just before he showed up. He makes me so happy and the things he says and does just make my smile constantly. He said it to, we're perfect for eachother. I wish we could have started this whole relationship sooner. I'm just making sure I cherish every minute I spend with him before our time will be few and far between and the majority of our time will be spent talking on a phone not being able to see eachother. It'll be hard, but we'll see what becomes of us. :)
Family. Not a big fan of leaving them. It's so hard to juggle family time and friend time because the people I'm hangin out with are leaving before I do, so I'm trying to get everyone in before they bust outta here. Grant and I just started talking again so he and I are trying to hang out before he goes as well. We've gotten a couple of hang outs in and are gunna chill a little bit next week before he goes as well. See for me, family will ALWAYS be here for me and friends just might not, so I'm just tryin to do my best and get everything in. I find myself soaking up the seconds with people just cause it could be our last real....get together. I felt like I said the word "trying" like 200 times...haha. Anywho. Seeing Sean go is going to be really hard for me. I hate the idea of not being able to see him whenever I want. There aren't that many guys in the world that I can kiss on the lips and cuddle with in bed that I don't call Dave. haha. Sean has been there for me in every possible problem I've been in, in the past year and he has made such an impact on me that he'll never understand. He's like my girlfriend if you will..haha. Tyler.....oh Tyler...that boy is my brother. No one has ever given me as many compliments as he has. No one has ever made me cry because of something nice they have said to me except for him. I love him like a bro! We've been friends for so many years.....I'm gunna have to say...almost 6? And now he's my boyfriend's best friend as well as mine. Who knew we'd be here 6 years later. So many memories with that kid that I don't know how I'll be able to not see him. I spose Alyssa and I will be down there visiting our babies. :) Alright...happier things.
Rachel McCorkle....I want to hang out with you for God's sakes...:) When you're not busy, call me! I'm gunna miss you so much and you and that blasted camp need to back off! haha. Really...CALL ME! I'm free a lot of the time and will make time for you and I! You're my girl.
Alright. I'm gunna go finish talking to Sean and Peter, then showering. Then going to bed. Tomorrow, I'm going to the skatepark to visit Jotto for a bit and then I'm making Sean go shopping with me for some jeans. I wanna get a new outfit for Dave's little party this weekend. I've got a big dinner tomorrow with Dave at Silo's, then a BBQ at his house on Sat. when I finally get to meet his mom. :) I've already met the Dad and sister. Sunday, Peggy's house!!! Alright. I've got a busy rest of the week.....I gotta rest up! *goodnight*
There is so much I want to write in here but can't put it in words. Like Dave for instance. I just love him so much.....I'm dreading the next weeks because the closer we get, the closer the time comes that my baby has to leave me and I have to leave him. There is something about him, when he's around I am so much happier than I was just before he showed up. He makes me so happy and the things he says and does just make my smile constantly. He said it to, we're perfect for eachother. I wish we could have started this whole relationship sooner. I'm just making sure I cherish every minute I spend with him before our time will be few and far between and the majority of our time will be spent talking on a phone not being able to see eachother. It'll be hard, but we'll see what becomes of us. :)
Family. Not a big fan of leaving them. It's so hard to juggle family time and friend time because the people I'm hangin out with are leaving before I do, so I'm trying to get everyone in before they bust outta here. Grant and I just started talking again so he and I are trying to hang out before he goes as well. We've gotten a couple of hang outs in and are gunna chill a little bit next week before he goes as well. See for me, family will ALWAYS be here for me and friends just might not, so I'm just tryin to do my best and get everything in. I find myself soaking up the seconds with people just cause it could be our last real....get together. I felt like I said the word "trying" like 200 times...haha. Anywho. Seeing Sean go is going to be really hard for me. I hate the idea of not being able to see him whenever I want. There aren't that many guys in the world that I can kiss on the lips and cuddle with in bed that I don't call Dave. haha. Sean has been there for me in every possible problem I've been in, in the past year and he has made such an impact on me that he'll never understand. He's like my girlfriend if you will..haha. Tyler.....oh Tyler...that boy is my brother. No one has ever given me as many compliments as he has. No one has ever made me cry because of something nice they have said to me except for him. I love him like a bro! We've been friends for so many years.....I'm gunna have to say...almost 6? And now he's my boyfriend's best friend as well as mine. Who knew we'd be here 6 years later. So many memories with that kid that I don't know how I'll be able to not see him. I spose Alyssa and I will be down there visiting our babies. :) Alright...happier things.
Rachel McCorkle....I want to hang out with you for God's sakes...:) When you're not busy, call me! I'm gunna miss you so much and you and that blasted camp need to back off! haha. Really...CALL ME! I'm free a lot of the time and will make time for you and I! You're my girl.
Alright. I'm gunna go finish talking to Sean and Peter, then showering. Then going to bed. Tomorrow, I'm going to the skatepark to visit Jotto for a bit and then I'm making Sean go shopping with me for some jeans. I wanna get a new outfit for Dave's little party this weekend. I've got a big dinner tomorrow with Dave at Silo's, then a BBQ at his house on Sat. when I finally get to meet his mom. :) I've already met the Dad and sister. Sunday, Peggy's house!!! Alright. I've got a busy rest of the week.....I gotta rest up! *goodnight*