...i dont wana hurt you i wana kiss you...
I'm over everything. I'm not even trying to transfer to another skewl. It's because I am over skewl. I'm over work. I'm over everything and I need change. I need to move, away from everything. I have a plan in my mind but I don't know if it will work. I pray that it will because I'm going crazy. I'm finding myself hating everything I once loved. I don't understand how life can change so fast. I don't want to talk to certain people, even though I love them. I just can't be your 3rd wheel my whole life. I can't do it anymore. I need straight friends. I need a normal life. I don't have any of that. But then again what is normal? I have no clue. So why do I want something I can't even define? Welp. IDK!
I guess I never thought it'd hurt this much. Is it possible to fall for someone you hardly knew? Or am I just missing having someone new in my life? I think I miss the idea of having someone, because I've wanted it for so long and I had it for a split second. I just want to be like on Desperate Housewife’s, turn on the bath and cry so no one can hear. I have been listening to sad things so I will cry, but I just can't even do it. I got my closer though. And I felt better for a few days. Now I just feel like why don't you still like me and wana talk to me all the time? Ohh wait, it's ova. ADUH.
I'm trying to just be excited for things like I used too. Such as my birthday, P.Runway starting, WATCHMEN and CORALINE coming out on DVD. It's funny how my life was a lot simpler when I was just really into materialistic things. I mean I still am but its guna take sometime before it's me against the world like it was. It's ok because I'm just going to go buy WATCHMEN and finish the LOST DVD's I have and get really into it and then my life will somehow get better? Yea prolly. Or maybe not. haha
All I like in life is everyone driving around W.Bloomfield trying to sing Regina but sounding so terrible and starting too soon that Betsy laughs for an hour making me laugh because I love her laugh! haha
I guess I never thought it'd hurt this much. Is it possible to fall for someone you hardly knew? Or am I just missing having someone new in my life? I think I miss the idea of having someone, because I've wanted it for so long and I had it for a split second. I just want to be like on Desperate Housewife’s, turn on the bath and cry so no one can hear. I have been listening to sad things so I will cry, but I just can't even do it. I got my closer though. And I felt better for a few days. Now I just feel like why don't you still like me and wana talk to me all the time? Ohh wait, it's ova. ADUH.
I'm trying to just be excited for things like I used too. Such as my birthday, P.Runway starting, WATCHMEN and CORALINE coming out on DVD. It's funny how my life was a lot simpler when I was just really into materialistic things. I mean I still am but its guna take sometime before it's me against the world like it was. It's ok because I'm just going to go buy WATCHMEN and finish the LOST DVD's I have and get really into it and then my life will somehow get better? Yea prolly. Or maybe not. haha
All I like in life is everyone driving around W.Bloomfield trying to sing Regina but sounding so terrible and starting too soon that Betsy laughs for an hour making me laugh because I love her laugh! haha