...i can live without you but without you ill be misrible at best...
It's a fact that when Lauren Swanny and I became friends we gave up our white blood cells as a sacrifice so we could be bffs. Seriously, this had to happen... and now we are sick all dah tyme. When she's sick I'm fine, then she gets better, and I get sick again. I h8 being sick. This year I think I've been sick the whole time... but before I was never sick. :( Now I find out Farley's gf has swine flu.... she touched my license and then so did I. If she gave me the mother fucking swine flu I'm going to murder her, and everyone else. So much hate. I'm actually feeling better than a few days ago, but I just want to be 100%.
I know I'm just making myself sick because Michael is gone. It's hurtting me so bad that I made myself sick. All I'm saying is that I listen to PYT every night and cry. What a beautiful black man/white women/transformer of POP. Miss you buddy. :(
It's spree week and I haven't gone once. I don't really care to go. I do want to go to the fireworks just because I like fireworks. Hopefully we all can go and it'll be a good group, and I won't be dying. Then things will be fine. I'm not to concerned, but then again I am. Aduhhhh always concerned.
I saw Paul the other night and it was nice, we didn't do anything really, but it's been making me think... a lot. He asked me to go to a wedding with him. Okay no big thing... BUT... he's the best man cuz it's his bff... ok still not a big deal I can sit by myself you know... but it's in DECEMBER IN VEGAS. Ok first of all that’s a while from now. Not saying "Oh we're guna break up before December.." but who knows? Who plans that far in advance? Second... it's Vegas... that means a trip... flying... hotels.. grown up things with my bf. I'm not a grown up. I know he is older and so are his frandz so this is prolly no big thing... but I'll be 20... so I can't do things in Vegas.. I can't do ANYTHING actually. I mean maybe if I get a fake ID.. but that's just well annoying and I'd be freakin dah whole time. Don't get me wrong, I like this kid, and I think it's sweet he asked me and everything but at the same time it made me take a step back and go wow I didn't think this was going to happen. Who knew stalkin peeps at Kholz would lead to anything.... anything like this. It makes me think about the L word too... like Brandon has been thinking. I don't want it to ever come up. Not for a long while. I don't think it will but what if it does? I'm being a baby I know... but I just like now, this, I don't want any other words to come up. I like the OKBYE when we end a phone call... I want nothing more.
OKBYE.
I know I'm just making myself sick because Michael is gone. It's hurtting me so bad that I made myself sick. All I'm saying is that I listen to PYT every night and cry. What a beautiful black man/white women/transformer of POP. Miss you buddy. :(
It's spree week and I haven't gone once. I don't really care to go. I do want to go to the fireworks just because I like fireworks. Hopefully we all can go and it'll be a good group, and I won't be dying. Then things will be fine. I'm not to concerned, but then again I am. Aduhhhh always concerned.
I saw Paul the other night and it was nice, we didn't do anything really, but it's been making me think... a lot. He asked me to go to a wedding with him. Okay no big thing... BUT... he's the best man cuz it's his bff... ok still not a big deal I can sit by myself you know... but it's in DECEMBER IN VEGAS. Ok first of all that’s a while from now. Not saying "Oh we're guna break up before December.." but who knows? Who plans that far in advance? Second... it's Vegas... that means a trip... flying... hotels.. grown up things with my bf. I'm not a grown up. I know he is older and so are his frandz so this is prolly no big thing... but I'll be 20... so I can't do things in Vegas.. I can't do ANYTHING actually. I mean maybe if I get a fake ID.. but that's just well annoying and I'd be freakin dah whole time. Don't get me wrong, I like this kid, and I think it's sweet he asked me and everything but at the same time it made me take a step back and go wow I didn't think this was going to happen. Who knew stalkin peeps at Kholz would lead to anything.... anything like this. It makes me think about the L word too... like Brandon has been thinking. I don't want it to ever come up. Not for a long while. I don't think it will but what if it does? I'm being a baby I know... but I just like now, this, I don't want any other words to come up. I like the OKBYE when we end a phone call... I want nothing more.
OKBYE.