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Well holy fucking shit, it's been a long time since I've been here, does anyone even use this site anymore? Well anyway, since I last posted, lets see, I've played some shows with APD, 2012 came and went, 2013 started with a bang, I got put on probation for a year because of my DUI, APD played some phenomenal gigs, a dormant medical condition I had popped up outta nowhere and I was hospitalized for 5 days, I played a show the day I after got out in my hospital gown, I dumped my girlfriend Ashley because she was basically a total cunt. A couple weeks later the band imploded due to secret, or maybe not-so secret drug habits that Alice & Howee were harboring. A dormant friendship with my friend Rachel was rekindled during that time and my best friend Josh moved back to ABQ.I met my probation officer for the first time, turns out she this gorgeous Russian, named Elena, I decided I was digging being on probation. She believed I was fucked up in the head and volatile (she wasn't wrong) and sent me to mandatory mental health counseling twice a week for the next three months, I meet my neurologist, he confirmed that despite my condition, I'm not gonna die from it. I have mixed feelings. Summer rolls around and since I'm not allowed to drive, I'm bussing and biking everywhere. Josh & Rachel decide they're in love and are moving to Columbus, OH together. (dummies! needless to say, that didn't end well), I worked as an extra on the set of a television show called "Longmire" as an inmate in the old jail downtown. August rolls in, I turned 44, APD decides to reform with a new female singer in late September named Jamye. She and I hit it off right away and start becoming "involved", APD begins practicing in early November and have a full set ready by the end of the year. I get through the holidays relatively unscathed.
2014 rolled in, I had high hopes for a better year since 2013 basically sucked complete ass! It started off so far, so good for 2014, APD played our first show with the new line up on January 31st, we sound great and things look promising! Still seeing Jamye as well but she's... I dunno, as long as the bands working out, it's all good. March 15th, APD plays The annual St. Punktricks Day gig at The Launchpad, we get the 5th slot which is one of the better ones. Us and The Brassknuckle Boys get the best responses. This marks the peak of harmony within this current lineup. It's all downhill from here... I'm not sure what exactly happened between them, because they're both fucking mental and one can only speculate, but at this point the APD House where we practiced and where Howee lived for a long time, that had a lot of history, many a house show, party, resident, shenanigan, etc. officially closed for good and Howee moved to west side ABQ or what I liked to call "The 3rd World", but around that time he decided he did not like Jamye anymore and other than band business, did not want that little bitch anywhere near him. Whatever... SO we had another big show coming up in May, a rather big one at a new all ages venue called The Jam Spot that would feature The Brassknuckle Boys, The Bad Engrish & 99 Bottles from Colorado and APD and Annihilate. And between the month and a half of planning and Howee & Jamye's drama and bullshit of epic proportions... Anyway, I'll skip going into it and just say that fortunately, this turned out to be an incredible show and without a doubt our best performance EVER! But after it was over... I needed a couple weeks off away from them, till we had to start practicing for the next one. In the meantime, The Business came to town and talk about the definition of total fucked upness. I think after that one was all said and done, I had pretty much had it with this scene and this town and that included every different scene in this town. All these simple-minded, self-absorbed, narcissistic, boneheaded, douchebag pieces of shit, know-it-all assholes can go fuck themselves. They don't know or care about anything and I will no longer concern myself with them. Unfortunately, I had one more show coming up that I was obligated to perform, which was still a month away so in the meantime I had to tough it out and deal with it. So on July 11th, APD played our last show at The Jam Spot, which was mediocre at best due to the tension between Howee and Jamye, not to mention Jamye being the self absorbed little trashy stripper twat that she is (did I mention that things between she and I had severely soured?) being less concerned about her performance and more concerned about her cheesy outfit and watching for photo ops and making sure she had just the right pose everytime she saw a fucking camera... fucking pathetic. I'll never play with her again. I've since then, put APD on "indefinite hiatus" and if we do play again (Highly unlikely, but stranger things have happened) she's out. Anyway. after that, I came home and haven't been living the "solitary life" since! Deleted my old Facebook account, started a brand new one, only have a few ABQ folks on my list of friends, those being family members or folks that I actually respect that arent connected in any way to those scenes or that nonsense. The rest are old and dear friends that don't live in ABQ or NM that I don't get to see anymore or that I may never see again that I want to stay in touch with. And that's how it shall remain. So anyway, on August 5th, I hit the 2 year mark without booze. I also forgot to mention that I quit smoking cigarettes over a year ago. I do smoke a little weed now and then, but nothing major. I also turned 45 last week. I don't know where I'm heading with this or the rest of my life at this point. I do know that if I didn't quit drinking when I did, I would definitely, without a doubt, be dead right now. It would have been either alcohol related, or my actions while drunk would have driven someone to take me out or I would have taken myself out. I'm not saying this to be melodramatic or anything, it's just straight up honesty. Being "not drunk" gives me a reason to keep moving forward despite how fucked up and hopeless this world can feel sometimes.
Alice contacted me today. I hadn't heard from her since I turned my back and walked away over a year and a half ago. I've missed her. It was really nice to hear from her :)
It just occurred to me that 5 months or so from now, it will be 10 years that I started this livejournal account! That's pretty fucking trippy...
2014 rolled in, I had high hopes for a better year since 2013 basically sucked complete ass! It started off so far, so good for 2014, APD played our first show with the new line up on January 31st, we sound great and things look promising! Still seeing Jamye as well but she's... I dunno, as long as the bands working out, it's all good. March 15th, APD plays The annual St. Punktricks Day gig at The Launchpad, we get the 5th slot which is one of the better ones. Us and The Brassknuckle Boys get the best responses. This marks the peak of harmony within this current lineup. It's all downhill from here... I'm not sure what exactly happened between them, because they're both fucking mental and one can only speculate, but at this point the APD House where we practiced and where Howee lived for a long time, that had a lot of history, many a house show, party, resident, shenanigan, etc. officially closed for good and Howee moved to west side ABQ or what I liked to call "The 3rd World", but around that time he decided he did not like Jamye anymore and other than band business, did not want that little bitch anywhere near him. Whatever... SO we had another big show coming up in May, a rather big one at a new all ages venue called The Jam Spot that would feature The Brassknuckle Boys, The Bad Engrish & 99 Bottles from Colorado and APD and Annihilate. And between the month and a half of planning and Howee & Jamye's drama and bullshit of epic proportions... Anyway, I'll skip going into it and just say that fortunately, this turned out to be an incredible show and without a doubt our best performance EVER! But after it was over... I needed a couple weeks off away from them, till we had to start practicing for the next one. In the meantime, The Business came to town and talk about the definition of total fucked upness. I think after that one was all said and done, I had pretty much had it with this scene and this town and that included every different scene in this town. All these simple-minded, self-absorbed, narcissistic, boneheaded, douchebag pieces of shit, know-it-all assholes can go fuck themselves. They don't know or care about anything and I will no longer concern myself with them. Unfortunately, I had one more show coming up that I was obligated to perform, which was still a month away so in the meantime I had to tough it out and deal with it. So on July 11th, APD played our last show at The Jam Spot, which was mediocre at best due to the tension between Howee and Jamye, not to mention Jamye being the self absorbed little trashy stripper twat that she is (did I mention that things between she and I had severely soured?) being less concerned about her performance and more concerned about her cheesy outfit and watching for photo ops and making sure she had just the right pose everytime she saw a fucking camera... fucking pathetic. I'll never play with her again. I've since then, put APD on "indefinite hiatus" and if we do play again (Highly unlikely, but stranger things have happened) she's out. Anyway. after that, I came home and haven't been living the "solitary life" since! Deleted my old Facebook account, started a brand new one, only have a few ABQ folks on my list of friends, those being family members or folks that I actually respect that arent connected in any way to those scenes or that nonsense. The rest are old and dear friends that don't live in ABQ or NM that I don't get to see anymore or that I may never see again that I want to stay in touch with. And that's how it shall remain. So anyway, on August 5th, I hit the 2 year mark without booze. I also forgot to mention that I quit smoking cigarettes over a year ago. I do smoke a little weed now and then, but nothing major. I also turned 45 last week. I don't know where I'm heading with this or the rest of my life at this point. I do know that if I didn't quit drinking when I did, I would definitely, without a doubt, be dead right now. It would have been either alcohol related, or my actions while drunk would have driven someone to take me out or I would have taken myself out. I'm not saying this to be melodramatic or anything, it's just straight up honesty. Being "not drunk" gives me a reason to keep moving forward despite how fucked up and hopeless this world can feel sometimes.
Alice contacted me today. I hadn't heard from her since I turned my back and walked away over a year and a half ago. I've missed her. It was really nice to hear from her :)
It just occurred to me that 5 months or so from now, it will be 10 years that I started this livejournal account! That's pretty fucking trippy...