In Loving Memory Of...
This has to be one of the worse days of the year, for 2005. This has to be one of the worst times in my entire life thus far.. because I now know what it feels like to lose someone that means the world to me.
I'm not talking about a Mother, or a Father.. or even a Human.. but rather a Cat, that sometimes may of believed he was more then that. Erin & I have had Morpheous since he was first born, in 2003.. & today, yesterday rather, June 13th, 2005.. we lost him.
It hurts so bad to lose him, because he was family to me. He was someone so much more then just a simple pet.. so much more then a simple cat. He was family. I woke up & found him in our bathroom, barly breathing. I noticed that he had thrown up, yet didn't move away from it. I also noticed later that he had went to the bathroom, yet didn't have the energy to move away from it. It hurt so much to see him like that. And I blame myself so much for not being able to help him.. I questioned taking him to the vet because we didn't have enough money for major treatments.. yet he was suffering more & more as the time went on.
Erin & I decided to finally take him to the vet, because his breathing wasn't getting better.. & he was slowly getting worse. His eyes were glossy & he just stared off into space.. as if he wasn't looking at anything. He wouldn't respond to his name, except for once.. when he tried to actually get up, but only kinda slumped over to his opposite side. We had a cat, Romie, who we believed to be poisoned because she wasn't able to walk, had blood on her tongue & mouth, plus next to her eye.. the point I'm getting to is.. Romie may of been poisoned, but we took Morpheous to the vet to find out he had a type of cancer. The vet explained that many cats, especially strays, get this & pass it on. (It can be passed on through male cats fighting & mating, as well as any cats, male or female, simply eating from the same bowl, eating the same food, or something as simple as sniffing each other's noses.) Morpheous started meowing really badly as we put him in a carrier.. & his meows got worse as we got to the vet. I don't know exactly how much pain he was in & I can't even begin to attempt to figure that out.. I just know he was in some type of pain, as well as worried due to the surroundings I'm sure.
I hated taking him there, & I have cried so much today because of this whole situation. To end this, we had to put Morphy to sleep.. otherwise he would've most likely ended up dying anyways.. except it would've caused him more pain, longer.. & it wouldn't of been like it was, by simply putting him to sleep.
I'm sorry if I'm going in & out of anything. Its hard to talk about this, & I don't even know how to fully express my feelings on the subject. The main thing I want everyone to know is Morpheous was family to me, I loved him with everything I have & I still & always will. I can't believe he's gone, I can't begin to understand why HE had to be taken from Erin & I.. & this pain may subside someday.. but it won't be soon. I still can't believe he's gone.. I just want to refuse to believe this.. I want to wake up from this dream, because its simply not fair that HE had to be taken away like this.
There is a song that I have, that I heard earlier.. just out of the blue that made me think of Morpheous. This will be the song, that whenever I hear it, I will always think of him. But even without any music, Morpheous will always be in my heart & in my soul. I'll never forget him or let him go. I love him so much..
Alter Bridge
"Thanks for all you’ve done
I’ve missed you for so long
I can’t believe you’re gone
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly
I’ve never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
And ill come home and I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see
And I know, you’re a part of me
And it’s your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can’t hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me
I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of
The one that was so true
Your were as kind as you could be
And even though you’re gone
You still mean the world to me
I’ve never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
But now I come home and it’s not the same, no
It feels empty and alone
I can’t believe you’re gone
And I know, you’re a part of me
And it’s your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can’t hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me
I’m glad he set you free from sorrow
I’ll still love you more tomorrow
And you will be here with me still
And what you did you did with feeling
And You always found the meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will
And I know, you’re a part of me
And it’s your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can’t hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me"
I hope & wish that Morpheous is in a far better place, with Romie & Gaven.. along with his Mom & all the other pets that were apart of our Family. Erin & I both hope that Morpheous will forgive us.. we didn't want to put him to sleep, but we couldn't bare watching him suffer any longer. Its not fair to be placed in a situation like that.. I'm sorry. Morphy, I love you & I'll always remember you.. you'll always be in my heart & I hope that someday I'll be able to see you again. I miss you, & I wish that you'd come back.. I wish you didn't have to leave.. it hurts without you here.
I'm not talking about a Mother, or a Father.. or even a Human.. but rather a Cat, that sometimes may of believed he was more then that. Erin & I have had Morpheous since he was first born, in 2003.. & today, yesterday rather, June 13th, 2005.. we lost him.
It hurts so bad to lose him, because he was family to me. He was someone so much more then just a simple pet.. so much more then a simple cat. He was family. I woke up & found him in our bathroom, barly breathing. I noticed that he had thrown up, yet didn't move away from it. I also noticed later that he had went to the bathroom, yet didn't have the energy to move away from it. It hurt so much to see him like that. And I blame myself so much for not being able to help him.. I questioned taking him to the vet because we didn't have enough money for major treatments.. yet he was suffering more & more as the time went on.
Erin & I decided to finally take him to the vet, because his breathing wasn't getting better.. & he was slowly getting worse. His eyes were glossy & he just stared off into space.. as if he wasn't looking at anything. He wouldn't respond to his name, except for once.. when he tried to actually get up, but only kinda slumped over to his opposite side. We had a cat, Romie, who we believed to be poisoned because she wasn't able to walk, had blood on her tongue & mouth, plus next to her eye.. the point I'm getting to is.. Romie may of been poisoned, but we took Morpheous to the vet to find out he had a type of cancer. The vet explained that many cats, especially strays, get this & pass it on. (It can be passed on through male cats fighting & mating, as well as any cats, male or female, simply eating from the same bowl, eating the same food, or something as simple as sniffing each other's noses.) Morpheous started meowing really badly as we put him in a carrier.. & his meows got worse as we got to the vet. I don't know exactly how much pain he was in & I can't even begin to attempt to figure that out.. I just know he was in some type of pain, as well as worried due to the surroundings I'm sure.
I hated taking him there, & I have cried so much today because of this whole situation. To end this, we had to put Morphy to sleep.. otherwise he would've most likely ended up dying anyways.. except it would've caused him more pain, longer.. & it wouldn't of been like it was, by simply putting him to sleep.
I'm sorry if I'm going in & out of anything. Its hard to talk about this, & I don't even know how to fully express my feelings on the subject. The main thing I want everyone to know is Morpheous was family to me, I loved him with everything I have & I still & always will. I can't believe he's gone, I can't begin to understand why HE had to be taken from Erin & I.. & this pain may subside someday.. but it won't be soon. I still can't believe he's gone.. I just want to refuse to believe this.. I want to wake up from this dream, because its simply not fair that HE had to be taken away like this.
There is a song that I have, that I heard earlier.. just out of the blue that made me think of Morpheous. This will be the song, that whenever I hear it, I will always think of him. But even without any music, Morpheous will always be in my heart & in my soul. I'll never forget him or let him go. I love him so much..
Alter Bridge
"Thanks for all you’ve done
I’ve missed you for so long
I can’t believe you’re gone
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly
I’ve never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
And ill come home and I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see
And I know, you’re a part of me
And it’s your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can’t hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me
I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of
The one that was so true
Your were as kind as you could be
And even though you’re gone
You still mean the world to me
I’ve never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
But now I come home and it’s not the same, no
It feels empty and alone
I can’t believe you’re gone
And I know, you’re a part of me
And it’s your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can’t hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me
I’m glad he set you free from sorrow
I’ll still love you more tomorrow
And you will be here with me still
And what you did you did with feeling
And You always found the meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will
And I know, you’re a part of me
And it’s your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can’t hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me"
I hope & wish that Morpheous is in a far better place, with Romie & Gaven.. along with his Mom & all the other pets that were apart of our Family. Erin & I both hope that Morpheous will forgive us.. we didn't want to put him to sleep, but we couldn't bare watching him suffer any longer. Its not fair to be placed in a situation like that.. I'm sorry. Morphy, I love you & I'll always remember you.. you'll always be in my heart & I hope that someday I'll be able to see you again. I miss you, & I wish that you'd come back.. I wish you didn't have to leave.. it hurts without you here.