FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!
first of all, WSU was great... but nothing really worth writing about. (or that i want anyone to know about) anyway, here come more complaints from the love department. most of you know the history between me and danielle, but what you dont know is that about a month or so ago we actually got together and started seeing eachother. a few good nights together and a lot of phone conversations, but recently the phone calls have ceased and the blow-offs started happening again. (more so on her part then mine) we made plans to hangout on monday, but again i got the blow off, and havent talked to her since. so the lack of contact began to get to me, and i decided to hit the market again. last night i went out with this girl amanda. we've talked quite a bit and she really seems to be into me. shes gorgous, intelligent, lives close by, a fellow gator, we like all the same stuff (from music to sports) and it seems like she should be the love of my life...... but i just dont feel the connection. when im with her i find myself thinking of danielle. with me and amanda theres no playful fighting, no butterflies in my stomach, no friendly flirting. with danielle i have all of that. so thats it then, its danielle i want. today i school i decided i would call her house when i got off work, and if she was working i was gonna buy a rose and head down there to see her. as i planned i get off work and call her house, her mom answers and tells me shes not home. perfect shes at work. then she continues "yeah, shes over at her boyfriends house". you gotta be fucking kidding me. my heat dropped. could something have materialized within the last four days? it could be a mistake, but i have a feeling its not. i feel like killing myself. right after i got off the phone i began calling everyone for someone to talk to but everyone was busy (you probably got a call) the last of these calls was amanda, so now were gonna go see the school of rock. im going on a second date with a girl who is into me, yet i feel no connection. (infact i think im infatuated with danielle) is this not fucked up? am i not completly shallow and worthless? or maybe im just loneley and hurt? please give advice.