Oh shoot.
Ugh...I feel like my life is falling down around me. Everything sucks. I can only be optimistic for so long before reality kicks me in the ass.
My boss got FIRED and now after stringing all of us along for about 3 weeks and telling us that we'll get more hours they decided that they can't financially keep the Teen Program going. Okay....so i need to get another job and grow up, right? Yah. But that job was so easy and fun and payed well and it kept me on a "stage" with a experienced director. (she just found herself in a music video from the 80's - She love my car by Ronnie Milsap. She's doing the moonwalk in the begining. look it up!) So now i'm like what the fuck am i supposed to do? I've tried applying for jobs but all i get is the same, "Well, we're accepting applications but our team is full."
I want to go back to school but i feel like having a degree won't even matter in a year or two cuz the economy. Call me stupid but at this point it would be a waste of time. I'll go back to school when/if this bullshit blows over.
I'm getting my tax return soon and i have to figure out if i want to save it to pay for my insurance in May or to just live off of it until i find a job.
I wanna be a frickin bartender. I'd be so good at that. AND i think that alcohol is recession proof. People always have money for boose. My dad never got me a graduation present (he got Alex a motorcycle.) so i'm going to aski him to put me through bartending school. Maybe not to tip the bartender but at least i'll have a job at night. Maybe i should get a job at the new Super WalMart by HHgreg. They're hiring like 400 people i think. But i don't wanna work with a bunch of....trashy people. Ugh! Thats why i can't get a job because i'm so frickin picky and stuck up about everything. There is an excuse for everything with me. I wish i still had my Metropark job. That was a good job for me even though i sucked at it. Then i had to fuck that up for myself.
I want to walk into Baccardi's corporate office and just convince them that i can make them money. Put me through bartending school, make me a bartender, i'll become a promotional bartender that they send all over the country, i'll model for them, i'll do the commercials, i'll party, network, and THAT will be my way in.
I need to start remembering that THIS IS REALITY don't i?
I just have so much to give. I know i do. I believe in me. Thats all that matters.
My boss got FIRED and now after stringing all of us along for about 3 weeks and telling us that we'll get more hours they decided that they can't financially keep the Teen Program going. Okay....so i need to get another job and grow up, right? Yah. But that job was so easy and fun and payed well and it kept me on a "stage" with a experienced director. (she just found herself in a music video from the 80's - She love my car by Ronnie Milsap. She's doing the moonwalk in the begining. look it up!) So now i'm like what the fuck am i supposed to do? I've tried applying for jobs but all i get is the same, "Well, we're accepting applications but our team is full."
I want to go back to school but i feel like having a degree won't even matter in a year or two cuz the economy. Call me stupid but at this point it would be a waste of time. I'll go back to school when/if this bullshit blows over.
I'm getting my tax return soon and i have to figure out if i want to save it to pay for my insurance in May or to just live off of it until i find a job.
I wanna be a frickin bartender. I'd be so good at that. AND i think that alcohol is recession proof. People always have money for boose. My dad never got me a graduation present (he got Alex a motorcycle.) so i'm going to aski him to put me through bartending school. Maybe not to tip the bartender but at least i'll have a job at night. Maybe i should get a job at the new Super WalMart by HHgreg. They're hiring like 400 people i think. But i don't wanna work with a bunch of....trashy people. Ugh! Thats why i can't get a job because i'm so frickin picky and stuck up about everything. There is an excuse for everything with me. I wish i still had my Metropark job. That was a good job for me even though i sucked at it. Then i had to fuck that up for myself.
I want to walk into Baccardi's corporate office and just convince them that i can make them money. Put me through bartending school, make me a bartender, i'll become a promotional bartender that they send all over the country, i'll model for them, i'll do the commercials, i'll party, network, and THAT will be my way in.
I need to start remembering that THIS IS REALITY don't i?
I just have so much to give. I know i do. I believe in me. Thats all that matters.