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So we've been given 3 months notice to leave our house. The story that every renter has at some stage. 2 of my housemates are going to look with me, while the other 2 have found another place already, somehow! This is good, as renting on my own would be expensive, and maybe lonely? But I'm also suddenly a bit freaked out at the thought of renting with them again. There was something about moving into Jess's house and taking things in that context, that it was hers first, before it was ours. But a new place will be ours from the start, and it's only just now occurring to me that perhaps she doesn't see it that way. Perhaps she likes having me as a housemate because I don't get in her way, or make noise, or have problems with her behaviour... Because she still gets her way.
In a 3 bedroom house, I'd only get one room, like now. But I'd get more of a say in the rest of the space, right? Suddenly scared that it will be her house again, I need to make sure I stay my ground on things that matter for me... But the thought of making my own home, my own place is still so fucking great, it's what I want. I thought, one year, a deadline, would be helpful... Now I'm just hoping I'll make it.
In other news, I'm writing this here because my friends still aren't here for me, and facebook has all the housemates. Sigh.
In a 3 bedroom house, I'd only get one room, like now. But I'd get more of a say in the rest of the space, right? Suddenly scared that it will be her house again, I need to make sure I stay my ground on things that matter for me... But the thought of making my own home, my own place is still so fucking great, it's what I want. I thought, one year, a deadline, would be helpful... Now I'm just hoping I'll make it.
In other news, I'm writing this here because my friends still aren't here for me, and facebook has all the housemates. Sigh.