easing out of the picture
so today and tomorrow! its a weird feeling, ive had lots of time to think about it. i dont think ill miss one thing in particular, but little things that make fremont home; little places that hold memories you made a long time ago. watching lightning on top of weibel, playing at the big tree, making wagon trains around my block, soccer at central park, knowing where good food can be found: papa panchos, the cheese taster... i know college will bring new memories and friends, but for every change you go through, you lose something, like it or not. its not necessarily bad, but it is. i remmeber at the end of gomes all my friends were like oh man this is so scary i dont want to lose you we have to stick together... and we did, for less than a year. and then new friends came and i never looked back. i dont say that to be like boohoo, but to state reality. you just move on, and i hate that feeling that moving on is eminent. you are alumni of msj, you have your friends 'from high school,' you'll go to high school reunions, you introduce your wife or husband to your 'old friends' half of whom you have no idea what happened to. this is the brink of that new frontier and it kills me. these people of now matter more to me than anyone and to think that it is temporary is a terrible thought. obviously you cant go through life thinking things are temporary and not investing in them, so this is the feeling you get because each time you go through a big change you have to let go of things you'vemade dear. its part of the human predicament. maybe im wrong, but im probably right