Jun 30, 2005 09:15
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although yesterday between swim lessons (10-12) and lifeguarding (4-8.30) rob and i went on a 20 mile bike ride up calaveras in the blazing heat. i love love love that. it makes you feel so amazingly alive and vibrant as though you could take on anything, but it also makes you feel like you could be crushed by something not even tangible. then i worked and went back to his house. im never home anymore, ever. if im not working, which i usually do for minimum of 6hrs a day to a max of 10hrs a day, im out with friends or sleeping. and for some reason my parents have managed to suck the fun out of fun. they make me feel guilty but i know if i was home id just be sitting. i miss what we could be. its kind of like getting over a girlfriend or soemthing. you wish you had her, but you know if you did it wouldnt be the same as it used to be. stressy...
so tomorrow is moms birthday, no clue on that. i need to write 800000000 thank you notes. i need to work from 10-12 and 2-9. i need to get ready cuz the italians are coming tomorrow until sunday. i need to tell the FUCKING gardeners outside to shut the hell up.