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Sometimes, or rather most times, I wish I was someone else. I get so tired of feeling this way. I want to be better, but I just don't do anything about it. I want to lose weight, but I know it won't make any difference. I still won't be attractive by any stretch of the imagination. That's not a good reason to not lose weight, but it's the first thing that comes to mind. It would do wonders for my health to lose about 100 more pounds. Maybe I will do it after all.
I fail at everything I do. Or almost everything. I used to think I could draw, until I saw other artists. And I was awestruck. I have come to realize that there is nothing that I am really good at. Even a computer game humbles me. Everyone I know has some special skills that amaze me. Like those that paint, write, create computer games, write in html, play WoW, play music, write music, or some that are just plain beautiful whether it be body and/or soul. I just never seem to fit in anywhere. And I know it's my fault. I just don't know what to do about it. Or if I should even do anything about it. If I could just accept it, I think I would be a lot happier. And so would those around me.
I fail at everything I do. Or almost everything. I used to think I could draw, until I saw other artists. And I was awestruck. I have come to realize that there is nothing that I am really good at. Even a computer game humbles me. Everyone I know has some special skills that amaze me. Like those that paint, write, create computer games, write in html, play WoW, play music, write music, or some that are just plain beautiful whether it be body and/or soul. I just never seem to fit in anywhere. And I know it's my fault. I just don't know what to do about it. Or if I should even do anything about it. If I could just accept it, I think I would be a lot happier. And so would those around me.