Not a good week.

[mozzyozbourne]

this week should have been really good. I mean, there were some good points. nicole's party for one. and the game. and after the game. that was fun. *BANG* melinda, you're dead. anyways. but I had a talk with tripp earlier in the week and he let me in on why everyone hates me. mainly its because I'm a whore. and a jerk. and i've been trying to notice myself (is that weird?) and I have. I've noticed myself being a jerk. and i've noticed myself thinking really mean stuff. and I'm like gosh. I'm sorry guys. I didn't know I was so unlikable. it makes me feel really bad. and so I know that when I feel lonely its my fault for running people off. for being a jerk and saying stuff that doesn't need to be said. and I don't know who to talk to about it cause... I dunno. I just feel lonely. like i don't have anyone I should tell. becasue I don't want to be one of those people who complains to you and you really don't want to hear it but you don't wanna be mean...so i just don't complain about it to anyone. I need to take a nap or something.I don't feel very good. and thinking about all this didn't help either.

also. a PS for you guys who don't know. saturday night I wrecked my car. it is totalled. it wasn't my fault. a lady pulled out of a gas station and wasn't looking and I slammed right into her. it ripped my front bumper off mostly, popped the my tire and completely disaligned the whole right side of my car. but nobody was hurt. yea I jammed my wrist a little bit but its not that bad. I hope I get a new car. :-/