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well i think i am crazy...i've been nothing but a pissy person for the past 24 hours and i can't get out of it...i've given my husband(still weird to say that) the silent treatment since yesterday. and its like i can't stop....i've done well today with eating. iam getting closer and closer to only eating 300-400 cals which is what i was at when i weighed 98-99lbs sooooooooo hopefully...right now my guy is sleeping on the couch and i just want to hit him....right now i am really frustrated because i want to express what i am feeling but i am stuck..i just can't get it out. and i don't know if iam stopping myself or if i just don't have the words. I want to work out really bad but i can't yet because of the shitty miscarriage and the shitty surgery. grrrrrrr.... i am just getting fatter and fatter as we speak.
my favorite meal: two rice cakes and some albacore tuna with lemon good lord it fills you up.
wake the fuck up you lazy piece of shit!! ! yes i am screaming in my head hoping he hears me, wakes up and sees i need a hug or maybe just something. i don't know if i do need anything, just like my last post if i get what i want i just might not want it anymore.
argh.
mox
my favorite meal: two rice cakes and some albacore tuna with lemon good lord it fills you up.
wake the fuck up you lazy piece of shit!! ! yes i am screaming in my head hoping he hears me, wakes up and sees i need a hug or maybe just something. i don't know if i do need anything, just like my last post if i get what i want i just might not want it anymore.
argh.
mox