Broken Angel 4/?
Title: Broken Angel 4/?
Pairing: Jared/Jensen
Word Count: ~5600
Rating/Warnings: NC-17 for violence, sexual situations, and references to non-con(but nothing graphic)
A/N: This story is based off a prompt by the amazing imogen_lily . Thank you so much for the gorgeous banner and for letting me play with this idea! I appreciate all the help sweetie!!!
Summary: Senator Fred Lehne has been brutally attacking, raping, and murdering young men for over a decade, but always evades arrest thanks to his money and power. He has everyone fooled, except one team of detectives headed by Captain Jeffrey Dean Morgan and his protege Jensen Ackles. When things become worse, Morgan goes to FBI agents Misha Collins and Jim Beaver for help. They offer it in the form of Jared Padalecki, hotshot profiler who also happens to be Jensen's boyfriend. But there is more Jared...he also happens to be the only surviving victim of Lehne's...
“I have no idea what you boys are talking about. Lehne is an outstanding senator and a wonderful employer. He’d never do a thing like that!”
Jensen sighed with frustration as he stared over at Ms. Lauren Cohan. She had been sitting across from him, sipping her coffee, and tapping her spiky high heels against the hardwood floor for nearly an hour now. And they were getting absolutely nowhere. The girl wasn’t that great of a liar either. It was obviously she knew more than she was admitting, but there was nothing he could do to get her to speak up.
“Ma’am,” Chris finally said, “if there is some reason you feel you can’t tell us…if you’re worried he’d hurt you in any way…we would protect you from him.”
“Of course,” Jensen added. “He would never be able to get near you.”
Lauren looked as if she was contemplating what the officers had just told her, but the expression was very fleeting. “I apologize officers, but you really are wasting your time here. Mine as well. I have so few hours out of the office as it is, and you are both taking up my day off with these ridiculous questions! Fred Lehne would never do such things!” With that, she stood from her chair and smoothed down her dress. “I think you both should leave. You’ve already made me late for lunch with my sister.”
Jensen bit his tongue and plastered a fake smile on his face. “We’re sorry, Ms. Cohan.” The words tasted bitter in his mouth, but he couldn’t say or do what he really wanted. He wanted nothing more than to curse her, shove the crime scene photos in her face, and stay there until she said something useful. Instead, he followed Christian out of the house and back to the car.
“Jen…”
Jensen ignored his friend and got into the passenger seat of Chris’s Crown Vic. He slammed the door hard as he saw Lauren saunter over to her convertible and speed off down the road. Chris just sighed and climbed in behind the wheel.
“Car didn’t do shit to ya, Jen.”
“Sorry,” Jensen mumbled, all the while watching the spot where Lauren’s car had turned.
“You knew this would happen, son. Wasn’t like we expected her to suddenly open up ‘bout Lehne’s shit.”
Jensen rubbed a hand over his face. “Was just my last chance.”
“Jen, we’ll get the bastard. We’ll get our chance and-“
“No, it was my last chance before Jared went undercover…”
“Oh. Shit…”
“Yeah. He wants to go through with it. I made JD give me one last interview with the secretary. He said after that, he’d have no choice but to have Jared go undercover. He doesn’t want to have him do it. We’re just out of options and need to do something before the bastard strikes again.”
“We do…I don’t like it either, son.” Chris gave Jensen’s shoulder a squeeze before he started the car up and pulled away from the curb.
“He’s been through a lot, you know? I don’t want him to relive any of it. He has enough damn night terrors as it is.”
Chris spared a glance over at Jensen. His friend was tense and fidgeting slightly in the leather seat. Nervous energy practically flowed off his body. “Jen, you know Jared’s strong. I think he can do this. Hell, maybe he needs to do this.”
Jensen was silent for a few beats before finally replying. “Just wish he didn’t have to.”
*******
Jared walked up to the door and carefully pushed it open. He smiled a little at the woman sitting on the other side. “Hey Sam…”
“Jared!” Sam gasped in surprise. “I wasn’t expecting you today sweetie.”
“Yeah,” Jared mumbled, running his hand through his long locks. “Well, Sophia said you had some cancellations and that you probably wouldn’t mind if I stopped by. If you are busy I can just come back some other time.”
“Come in and sit your ass down, boy,” Sam ordered affectionately. Jared had always been one of Dr. Samantha Ferris’s favorite patients. She knew she wasn’t supposed to show favoritism, but she couldn’t help it. The kid had been coming into see her on and off since he was sixteen. Jim, being the head of the poor boy’s case at the time, had suggested Sam talk to him about what had happened. It was hard to get Jared to open up about his attack. But after weeks of trying and one tear filled session, she knew that he would always be a part of her life.
“Thanks, Sam.”
“You know you’re welcome any time kiddo.” Sam sat down the files she had been going through moments earlier. “Not that I mind seeing your pretty face ‘round here, but what brings ya by, hun?”
“Can’t I just stop by and say hi?”
“Nice try Jare…what’s going on?”
Jared sighed and took a seat on the expansive leather couch across from Sam, fiddling with his cane a bit. “Did you see the news?” Jared whispered.
“I did. I’m so sorry Jay.” Sam reached across and squeezed his good leg.
“I’m…uh…workingonthecase.” The last half of the statement was said in a rush, mainly because he knew Sam wasn’t going to be too happy out his decision.
“I’m a good listener Jay, but not even I could understand what you just said…”
Jared gulped. “I’m working on the case…”
Sam’s eyes grew wide with shock. “I see.”
“Misha recommended me to Captain Morgan.”
“I’m surprised Misha did that.”
“I was at first. But…then again, I’m probably the only person alive who could give you so many details about Lehne.”
“Didn’t think Misha would exploit that though…”
“He isn’t,” Jared quickly defended. “Just thought I’d want to help and knew I’d give the best profile.”
“Have no doubt that you did.” Sam smiled proudly at the man in front of her.
“I may have been able to enlighten the officers to some lesser known details of Lehne’s life and all.” He pauses for a moment. “But…that’s not all.”
Sam just gave him a look.
Jared sighed and started fidgeting with his cane out of nervousness. “We need to trap Lehne. Best way to do that is to get someone to go undercover. I agreed to it.”
“Getting someone to go undercover would be the best thing. You know the team would back up whomever they sent in there. Jensen wouldn’t let someone else get hurt. So why are you acting so nervous?”
Jared cast his eyes down to his lap, scared of what Sam’s reaction was going to be.
“No!” Sam gasped, finally putting it all together. “No! Jared! You can’t…”
“Not many options left, Sam.”
“Find someone else. There are lots of guys in this city…I’m pretty damn sure you could find someone else who fits his type.”
“I don’t want someone else to have to do it…”
“Jared you could get hurt! Do you have any idea what Lehne would do if he realized one of his marks was an undercover agent?!?”
“That’s why I have to do it!” Jared snapped. He looked close to tears. Sam didn’t look much better. He deflated back against the couch as her expression softened. “I can’t let anyone else get hurt like I did. I can’t…”
Jared hadn’t realized that tears had started to flow down his cheeks until Sam reached up and wiped them from his face. “Jay-“
“I can do this.” His voice was quiet, yet held determination.
*********
By the time Jared pulled his SUV into his driveway, a handful of other cars were already parked around his house.
“Shit,” he muttered to himself. He had completely forgotten that his family was supposed to be coming over for dinner tonight. He was exhausted; having spent over an hour in Sam’s office talking about things he normally tried to avoid discussing. All he wanted to do was crawl in bed and hide out from everyone for a while.
It was a safe bet that by now, everyone in there knew about the plan for him to go undercover. Between Jeff and Jensen, it couldn’t stay a secret for too long. He had seen and heard their reaction earlier. It hadn’t been pleasant…he didn’t expect his parents or sister to react any better.
He sat in the car and tried to build his courage up for a few moments. He then took a deep breath and hobbled out and towards the front door. He heard voices from inside as he approached, and he began to dread the inevitable conversation with each step up to the porch. He fumbled with his keys before finally unlocking the door to the house he had shared with Jensen for a couple of years now.
“Uncle Jay! Uncle Jay!” He was greeted at the front door by the squealing voice of his three-year old niece. Her long brunette hair was pulled up in pigtails that hung down to her shoulder. Her blue jeans had little purple butterflies down the sides to match her purple and black t-shirt. Despite her love for girly clothes, she was a total tomboy, evident by the small patches of dirt on her jeans from where she had most likely played outside with the dogs. All in all, she was definitely Jared’s little angel.
“Tessa!” Jared reached down and scooped her up so that he could give her a big hug. He settled her against his hip, on his good side of course, and she wrapped her little arms around his neck. “How’s my favorite girl doing?”
“I played with the puppies!”
“I can see that sweetheart,” Jared laughed. “Did you have fun?”
“Uh huh!” Tessa nodded vigorously to emphasize it, sending her pigtails flying everywhere and smacking Jared in the face. He didn’t mind. He would take the moments with her while he could…because he knew the rest of his family wasn’t going to be as happy with him tonight.
“Tessa? Baby…where’d you go to?”
“I’ve got her, Lisa!”
“Good,” Jared’s sister-in-law Lisa sighed in relief. At five months pregnant, chasing after a toddler definitely was not one of her favorite things to do.
“Mommy! I found Uncle Jay!” The little girl held out her arms to her mom.
“Good job, baby.” Lisa lifted Tessa out of Jared’s arms before smiling at him in sympathy.
“That bad in there?”
“Well, your parents are taking it all in stride. Your sister hasn’t really said anything. And Jeff and Jensen have been…very vocal in their opinion about it all.”
“Awesome,” Jared huffed tiredly.
“I’m sorry, Jare.” Lisa leaned up and gave him a soft kiss on the cheek. “Good luck.”
“You’re not going in with me?” Jared asked, knowing he sounded like a scared little kid.
“I’m going to go back outside with the munchkin and let her play with your babies some more.”
“You know you’re leaving me to the wolves right?”
“You’ll be fine sweetie. Maybe it won’t be that bad.” Jared just fixed her with a look. “Ok, it probably will be. You can always come out back and hide out with us afterwards.”
“I’ll keep that in mind. Go have fun with the dogs. Uncle Jay will see you in a little while Tessie. Hopefully,” he mumbled.
Tessa just smiled up at him, but Lisa squeezed his shoulder in sympathy before heading back outside. Jared tried to take a calming breath before he headed towards the kitchen where the rest of his family had gathered. As he walked closer he could hear Jensen’s voice echo through to the hallway.
“No Jeff. I couldn’t get the bitch to talk today! Chris and I tried for damn near an hour. She-“
“You should’ve tried harder Jen! You know that if you don’t get her or one of his other guys to talk they’re gonna make Jared do this undercover shit!”
“I know Jeff! I am doing everything I can to stop it! But they are going to make-“
“No one’s making me doing anything,” Jared said from the doorway.
Jeff and Jensen at least looked a bit sheepish at realizing Jared had overheard them. His parents were standing at the stove, busily cooking the spaghetti dinner and tossing the salad. Megan was sitting on top of the counter, looking at him nervously.
“Jared,” Jeff finally spoke up. “You wouldn’t be doing this if they hadn’t suggested it in the first place!”
“Maybe not,” Jared sighed. “But I’m still doing it. I want to do this and get that bastard off the streets.”
“Jay, there are lots of ways to get him off the streets,” Jensen added.
“And none of them have worked in the past. You know this is the best option we have! Why can’t you trust me to do this?”
“It isn’t that I don’t trust you! I don’t trust him! You could get hurt and I don’t want this to set you back. You’ve come so far with everything and-“
“I’m not going to break! Quit acting like it! Just because I’ve been through some shit doesn’t mean I can’t handle my job!”
“We never said you couldn’t, bub,” Jeff placated.
“You might as well have.”
“Baby,” Sherry interrupted. “We know you are capable of doing this. We just are worried about you.” She walked over to her baby boy and ran her hand along his cheek.
“I can take care of myself. I know how-“
“You said you knew how to take care of yourself back then too, Jared!” As soon as the words left his mouth, Jeff knew he shouldn’t have said that. His little brother’s face fell with devastation. “I didn’t…I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it like that Jay.” Jeff walked to his brother’s side and put his hand to Jared’s shoulder. Jared just shrugged it off.
“Don’t…” Jared’s voice was barely above a whisper.
“Jare,” Jensen started, “Jeff didn’t mean that. He’s just worried about you. Hell, we all are. I mean, we know what this could-“
“No you don’t,” Jared interjected with exasperation. “You haven’t been there! You don’t know what it is like to go through that! I do! And I’ll be damned if I’m letting it happen again!” With that Jared walked past his family towards the hallway.
“Jay!” Gerry called after him.
“I…I just want to go to my room for awhile.”
“What about dinner, son?”
“Not hungry…”
Jared glanced outside and saw that Tessa was still playing outside, but Lisa looking inside. She must have heard the commotion. He wanted to be with his niece, however he really didn’t want to have to be around anyone else right now. His bedroom really was the best place at the moment. He stomped up the steps and shut the bedroom door behind him.
Once inside the room he shared with Jensen, he collapsed back on to the spacious bed. His eyes stung with unshed tears and his mind was whirring. He knew he went too far…they all had. His brother’s words had hurt, just as much as his own words had probably hurt his family and Jensen.
He knew they all had been good with him and how hard everything had been on them. Even Jensen had had a hard time when Jared finally revealed his past to the man.
Jared kicked off his shoes and stripped down to his boxers and t-shirt before crawling under the covers. He wasn’t going back downstairs. He just wanted to stay in bed and not face them for the night. He was exhausted, but his mind kept playing the looks on his family’s faces like a bad movie. And the projector kept getting stuck on Jensen’s devastated face. With that image burned into his brain, Jared fell into a restless sleep…
*********
“So tonight sounds like kind of a big deal Jay!”
Jared rolled his eyes at Alona’s squealing voice. But it really was going to be a big night for him. “I guess…”
“You guys have been going out for what now…six months?!?”
“Yes, Al. You know how long we’ve been going out. You’re the one who introduced us.”
“I know! But you are welcome to keep on thanking me for it.”
Jared again rolled his eyes, however he did give her a big kiss on the cheek. “Thank you.”
“So, what are you two doing tonight for your anniversary?”
“It’s not an anniversary. Those only happen every year. Not for six months…”
“Oh shut up! That’s what you guys are celebrating tonight!”
“Fine, call it what you want,” Jared sighed. He walked over to her full-length mirror to check his clothes once more. Alona had convinced him to wear a green and grey striped button up without a sweater over top of it for once. Dark washed jeans and a pair of grey Chuck Taylor’s finished off the look. His hair was about as good as it was going to be for the night, even though it still flopped into his eyes every once in awhile.
“You never answered me babe…”
“He’s picking me up from here sometime soon to take me back to his apartment. He cooked dinner and just wants to have a quiet night in.”
“Aww…sounds romantic and intimate.”
Jared tensed at the word. “Y-yeah. But we haven’t…well…we…haven’t…you know…”
Alona climbed off her bed and walked over to stand beside Jared. She pulled him in for a hug and ran her hand through his unruly mop. “You don’t have to. You know that sweetie.”
“I know but-“
Jared was interrupted by the doorbell. Alona squeezed his arm before running off to answer it.
“Hey Al.” Jared could hear Jensen’s voice floating up the staircase.
“Hey Jen,” Alona replied. “Come on in. Jared’s just finishing getting ready.”
Jared took that as his cue. He grabbed his cane and headed out towards the living room. His leg was a little sore, but nothing unusual. Because of it, though, he stumbled a little on the stairs and nearly fell into Jensen.
“Sorry Jen!” Jared quickly apologized.
Jensen didn’t respond. He was too busy looking up and down Jared’s body and taking in the handsome man beside him. He hardly ever saw Jared dressed like this. Normally his boyfriend wore layers of clothes or hoodies; long sleeves were a norm as well, even in the Texas heat of summer. But now, Jared just had a button up on. The sleeves still extended down to his wrists, however the shirt was cut just right for his slender waist. He looked gorgeous.
“Jen? I didn’t run into you when I tripped did I? Are you ok?”
Jensen shook himself back to the present. “You look amazing.”
Jared blushed deeply and wasn’t sure how to respond.
“Come on,” Jensen continued. “I have a lasagna in the oven at home for us.”
Jared just smiled and nodded, still at a loss for words.
“Have fun sweetie,” Alona said. She leaned up to give him a goodbye kiss before whispering in his ear. “Just relax. I’m here if you need to come home later.”
“Thanks Al,” he mumbled back.
Jensen waved goodbye and then guided Jared out of the house he shared with Alona. Jensen kept his arm around Jared’s waist. “How’s the leg today?” Jensen knew something had happened to his boyfriend to mess his leg up so badly, but he didn’t know the specifics.
“It’s ok. Just tripped on the last step earlier.”
“Ok…just wanted to check. I want this night to be perfect, babe.” Jensen reached up and pushed a lock of hair to the side so that he could kiss Jared on the forehead.
After that, they silently drove the few blocks over to Jensen’s quaint apartment. Jared was too nervous to really talk and Jensen was too excited. They were both in for a big night…
Once inside the apartment, the chatter picked up more. Jensen talked about his day at the precinct and how he was finally gaining some respect from his new team. Jared talked about his classes and how much he was dreading finals. It was relaxing and allowed Jared to enjoy their meal. It wasn’t long before they had both devoured most of the lasagna and salad.
“You wanna watch a movie in bed or something?”
“Sure,” Jared said, hoping he kept the nerves from leaking into his voice. He breathed a sigh of relief when Jensen just got up and grabbed his hand to lead him to the bedroom. It wasn’t like this was the first night they’d watched movies in bed. Jensen only had a TV in his bedroom; his living room was just too small.
They soon settled on top of Jensen’s king sized bed. It took up the majority of the room, but it was perfect for the two of them. Jensen’s well-watched copy of Indiana Jones played away on the TV. Neither of them was honestly paying much attention.
Jared and Jensen’s attention remained on each other as theirs bodies melted together. Jensen’s lips softly pressed into Jared’s. His tongue pressed at the slit for entrance before entangling itself with Jared’s. Jared’s hand brushed against Jensen’s chest before coming up to cup his cheek. Jensen’s hands ran down Jared’s sculpted chest before settling at his waist. He toyed with the waistband to Jared’s jeans.
And that was all it took. Jared’s mind flashed back to a different set of hands playing with his waistband. He whimpered despite himself and began to pull away from Jensen.
“Jay?” Jensen asked shakily. “What’s wrong? I didn’t hurt you…did I?”
Jared didn’t respond; he was too busy trying to control his breathing and remain in the present.
“Jared?” Jensen placed his hand on Jared’s back, only to have his boyfriend flinch. “What’s wrong?”
“N-nothing…”
“Babe…I can tell something’s wrong. So what is it? Was I moving too fast for you?”
Jared didn’t respond.
“I wasn’t trying to. I just thought…I shouldn’t have assumed you want to do anything. I know we wanted to take things slow. I should’ve-“
“You’re not the problem,” Jared mumbled. A tear worked its way down his cheek. Jensen noticed and was quick to wipe it away.
“What’s going on babe?”
“I’ve never…”
Jensen’s brow furrowed in confusion for a moment before it finally hit him. “You’re a virgin?” Jared closed his eyes at the question so he wouldn’t have to look at Jensen. “That’s not a big deal Jay. You’re younger than me. It isn’t like it’s a problem. I can just take it slow. I-“
“Not like that…”
“So you’re not a virgin?” Jensen asked, puzzled.
“I’m…it’s complicated.” More tears started to flow and Jared’s voice cracked on the words.
“Jay…come here.” Jensen gently tugged on his boyfriend until the younger man leaned into him. He wrapped his arms around Jared as a sob escaped his lips. “I’ve gotcha. Shh…I’m here. You’re ok.”
It took a few minutes for Jared to compose himself. By the time he did, Jensen’s shirt had a wet spot from Jared’s tears.
“I’m so sorry,” Jared muttered. “I ruined our night.”
“No you didn’t.” Jensen pulled him closer as he kissed the top of his head. “I’m still here with you. That’s all I care about. We don’t have to do anything you’re not ready for Jay. I love you and I just want to be with you. I don’t care about all that stuff.”
It took all Jared had not to tear up again. He bit at his lip as he tried to decide what to say next. He really wanted to tell Jensen, but he hadn’t planned on doing that. Then again, he hadn’t planned on breaking down over Jensen’s hand brushing against his waist like that either…
“W-when I was sixteen…I was walking home from the library by myself. It was later, but I didn’t want to bother anyone for a ride. S-some guy in a van pulled up…it was dark and I couldn’t tell who it really was.” Jared knew that was a lie, but he didn’t want to go into that tonight. “The guy asked if I wanted a ride. I said no…but he didn’t…he didn’t like that I said no…”
“Jare…”
“I tried to walk away, I really did. But…he grabbed me from behind and shoved something at my mouth. I learned later that it was a towel drenched with chloroform. He dragged me into his van and took off.”
“God,” Jensen gasped.
“When I came to, had parked somewhere on the side of the road…out near the woods. I was strapped to the backseat and…he was on top of me,” Jared said around a sob.
“Baby, you don’t have to-“
“He had an knife…”
“Shhh,” Jensen soothed, rubbing his hand up and down Jared’s broad back.
“That’s the reason I have my cane. And why I always wear long sleeves…”
“I understand.” Jensen kissed the top of Jared’s head. “I’m so sorry…”
“I…I was a virgin ‘til then.” Jared’s voice was barely above a whisper and his whole body was shaking.
Jensen wasn’t faring much better. He was shaking with anger at what Jared was telling him. It made sense; it fit with all of Jared’s quirks and insecurities. Yet Jensen never would have thought it had actually happened to his sweet, loving boyfriend.
After a few moments of silence, Jensen finally found his voice. “You still are.”
“What? No…he-“
“Doesn’t count,” Jensen rasped, trying to control his tears.
Jared couldn’t control his own and let them fall once more.
“That doesn’t count,” Jensen repeated a little stronger. “You, you didn’t want that, baby. That bastard doesn’t count. Shh…you’re ok. I’m here. Not going anywhere, Jay.”
Jared’s mind was reeling. Jensen was still there and still loved him, despite all the shit he just told him. He knew Jensen wasn’t like his last boyfriend. Aaron hadn’t been able to handle all of this and had run before Jared was even home from the hospital. But Jensen was still here…still lying beside him and holding him close. Jensen was different…
Jared’s tears began to dry up, and he pushed himself away from Jensen’s chest so that he could lean up to give the man a kiss. He passionately pressed his lips to Jensen’s. His hand reached up to settle on Jensen’s chest. It roamed upwards Jensen’s face and then intertwined into his spiky hair.
“Thank you,” Jared whispered huskily against Jensen’s lips. He pressed his body closer to Jensen’s, melting into the older man’s embrace and rubbing against him.
“Jay,” Jensen muttered. “Jared…”
*********
“Jared? Babe?”
Jared woke easily to the feeling of Jensen’s hand in his hair. “Hmm,” he groaned sleepily. He blinked against the soft light of the bedside lamp before his eyes settled on Jensen’s worried face. “Hey,” he said, this time more awake. He ran his hand over his face.
“Hey…sorry. I should’ve just let you sleep,” Jensen replied sheepishly.
“It’s ok. What time is it?”
“A little after nine.” Jensen sat down next to Jared on the bed. “Your family left a little while ago.”
“Oh…”
“Listen, Jay, I shouldn’t have said those things. None of us should have. We were all out of line and-“
“I was too. I was just so tired and frustrated.”
“We shouldn’t have made you feel that way. We’re all just worried about you. I mean, you’ve come so far since the…attack…and we don’t want you to get hurt.”
“But,” Jared started, sitting up a little more against the headboard, “what you guys don’t understand is not doing this is hurting me. Every time I read those damn headlines I feel as if I’m right back in that van fighting him. I’m sick of letting this bastard hurt these people. My attacker,” Jared paused for a moment to figure out what to say. He had almost let the truth about Lehne slip. “My attacker was never caught either.”
“Jay-“
“No, Jen, I need to do this. I need to do something besides sit behind my desk and typing up reports about Lehne. I need to try. I can’t…”
“Ok,” Jensen soothed. He ran a hand over Jared’s sleep messy hair before leaning in for a kiss. He smiled against Jared’s lips as the younger man returned the affection. “But I want you to do whatever we say and when we say it with this. Me, Jeff, and Jim call the shots. If we think you’re in over your head, we’ll pull you it. No arguing.”
“I can live with that,” Jared assured before going in for another kiss. He finally felt as if a burden had been lifted from his shoulders. He was still worried about actually going under cover, but he was relieved to know that he could possibly take down the son of a bitch that had hurt him so badly.
“So you’re not mad anymore?” Jensen asked in between kisses.
“No,” Jared whispered near Jensen’s ear before reattaching his mouth to Jensen’s.
Jensen chuckled before pulling away for some more air. “I can see that,” he panted. He ran his hand over Jared’s flushed cheeks and look into his darkened eyes. Jared had grown so much since they first started dating all those years ago. Back then, Jared shied away from touches and just getting him to allow Jensen to steal a kiss had been hard. Jensen had always understood of course.
But after that night when Jared had shared his horrible past, things had changed. Jared slowly started to open up and become more receptive. He had moved past shying away from touches to embracing them. He had moved from allowing Jensen to stealing a few kissing every now and then to hungrily devouring kisses on his own. To more…
Jared leaned in towards Jensen, settling his hands at the man’s waist and slowly pressing small suckling kissing down Jensen’s neck. Jensen shuddered and pushed up into the touch. His clothes felt tight and warm. Jared must have thought the same thing, because he began to shove the t-shirt up and off of Jensen.
“No fair,” Jensen pouted. “You’re still dressed you know?”
Jared chuckled. “I’m in a shirt and boxers…”
“That’s too much clothes…”
Jared smiled and leaned in for Jensen to strip off his shirt. He then made quick work of Jensen’s jeans. Both men were soon pressed up against each other, dressed only in their boxers, and running their hands all over their bodies.
Jensen’s hand brushed against the waistband to Jared’s boxers. He paused to look up at Jared, silently asking for reassurance. He never wanted to do something Jared didn’t feel like doing. Jared lifted his hips up in answer and allowed Jensen to pull the final article of clothing down. Jensen pressed one final kiss to Jared’s mouth before turning his attention elsewhere.
His hands roamed down Jared’s lean frame, caressing the scars that still littered it. His lips brushed against the rough skin around Jared’s thigh for just a moment. His lips then found their way over to Jared’s ever growing erection. Jensen took it into his mouth, sucking and licking.
“Mmmm,” Jared moaned. “God…”
Jensen laughed around Jared’s member. The vibration of it only drove Jared crazier.
“Shit…Jen!”
It wasn’t long before Jared’s orgasm hit and his hip bucked up into Jensen’s mouth. He whimpered and cursed his way through it. It all was almost enough to make Jensen come himself. Instead, he took a deep breath and reached over to the nightstand for supplies.
“You ok Jay?”
Jared turned to look at Jensen who was leaning over top of him now. “God yes!” His eyes then settled on the bottle of lube in Jensen’s hand. “But could be better if…”
Jensen’s eyes darkened with lust and he kissed Jared’s swollen lips. Jared reached down and pulled Jensen’s boxers off, freeing his already present erection from the material.
Jensen started to prep Jared. He took care to be gentle and caress the muscles and flesh. It made Jared writhe and moan underneath him.
“Shit…ready…stop….Jen!”
Jensen couldn’t help but laugh. Jared, his freakishly intelligent boyfriend, had already been reduced to mush.
“Whatever you want babe,” Jensen whispered huskily against Jared’s ear.
Jared trembled at the words but didn’t have time to reply. Jensen was already pressing into him. It took a moment to adjust, and then Jared was pressing down into Jensen, asking for more.
Jensen began to move, slow and gentle.
“God Jay!”
Jensen tried to keep his pace easy, but he couldn’t hold it for long. His hips snapped forward quicker and quicker with each thrust. He took Jared’s erection into his hand and pulled at the bulge. Both men were gasping for breath and covered in a fine sheen of sweat.
A few thrusts and pulls later and the two of them climaxed together. Their worlds blitzed out into nothing but the two of them. Nothing else mattered in that moment. Not their pasts…not Lehne…nothing. All they felt was each other.
“Holy shit,” Jensen muttered as he finally came down from his high. He pulled out of Jared and fell next to him on the bed.
Jared only hummed in agreement, too tired to do much else.
Jensen turned towards the younger man, taking in the half lidded eyes and lax limps. He leaned over to give Jared one last kiss for the night. He then pulled up the blankets over them both.
“Come here,” Jensen whispered.
Jared shuffled slightly and Jensen pulled him into his arms. They curled around each other and quickly fell asleep. Neither thought of the hell they would soon be facing.
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A/N: So...I've never written a sex scene before...hopefully it wasn't too awful lol.