whir yourself around, just to fall back down.
today i visited my grandmother. she taught me a new knitting stitch and gave me her polaroid camera from the 60s. afterward, i went to the camera store to see if they knew what kind of film the polaroid would use. they said sx-70 film should work, which is still being made, but they had none. so i looked at filters and lenses for my pentax and the boy working there let me play with the canon powershot. i left and went to an overpass and did a four minute exposure with a new filter. i went to the beach next and sat on the big rocks and let my hair down so it could go crazy in the wind. i got home and as the sun was setting i did a 12 minute exposure in my backyard (without a filter).
i wish i could take something seriously. the only things that i take seriously are the things that are never ever going to happen. today i ate a sandwich. i haven't eaten a sandwich in a long time. but this wasn't just any sandwich, it was a greek sandwich. i had more cottage cheese with pineapple because that is delicious. my hair is knotted and salty from the beach, but it's due for another washing, so by the end of tonight it will be neither knotted nor salty. i wash it in one week incriments. i think my eyelashes are my least favorite part of my body. besides my fucking mini-love handles. i want to work at the library, but apparantly the requirements are: old, visually impaired, and badly dressed; because they won't hire me. oh, and some dumb thing about having to be legal to work for broward county. whatever. i also wanted to work at barnes and noble but i guess they figured out that i've stolen about 25 books from them because they wouldn't hire me either. i want to buy a sweater with a really big turtle neck so i can pull it over my face and wear it like that all day and not have to be afraid that people are saying things about my face. i also won't have to make any facial expressions, which would be the best part. sometimes i get really tired of being so predictable. i guess everyone that makes facial expressions is predictable, though. someday i am going to do something you would never expect. like take something seriously.