my ephiphany, if you will
this weekend has been really good for me.
i haven't spent this much consecutive time with ryan since camping.
i really think more important than bonding and sharing with each other is what i've taken away.
we're growing together. simply, we're growing.
i learned things. i saw things differently.
i psychoanalyzed him. and me. tonight.
it was great though. i told him what i saw.
i have a theory about people.
i believe everyone has a base. think of it like a tree.
we all have a tree. this is a tree of our flaws.
and i believe all of our flaws stem from one trunk.
i know what mine is. therapy has helped me see that.
now that i know what it is, i can label what i do wrong and why.
that's one step closer to ridding me of these issues.
so i told him what his problems were, but constructively.
and i really think, for one of the first times, he took something away.
he usually is unwilling to take criticism and laughs it off.
but he listened. and he took it in. and i told him i'll support him.
i really think people who are judgemental of others for certain reasons have an issue.
and that is that they hate in others what they hate in themselves.
once this hate is eliminated, they aren't so judgemental.
and if all these people were constructively told about themselves, they'd be able to improve.
see, people know what's wrong with them, but they don't always have a label.
if you can admit to yourself that you have flaws, that's the first step.
the second is recognizing what they are and when and why you exhibit them.
i'm optimistic because i'm working on myself. i'm trying to be nicer and more real.
i'm drug free and i couldn't be happier about it.
i feel like i'm making a dramatic change.
i'm working on myself.
i always wanted to and needed to but i didn't know where to begin.
i really think i'm getting there.
i'm proud of myself for having the strength to do this for myself.
i'm here for anyone who needs me.
i don't think i've ever meant that more.
take care everyone.
love,
madeleine
PS: 10 months tomorrow =)
i haven't spent this much consecutive time with ryan since camping.
i really think more important than bonding and sharing with each other is what i've taken away.
we're growing together. simply, we're growing.
i learned things. i saw things differently.
i psychoanalyzed him. and me. tonight.
it was great though. i told him what i saw.
i have a theory about people.
i believe everyone has a base. think of it like a tree.
we all have a tree. this is a tree of our flaws.
and i believe all of our flaws stem from one trunk.
i know what mine is. therapy has helped me see that.
now that i know what it is, i can label what i do wrong and why.
that's one step closer to ridding me of these issues.
so i told him what his problems were, but constructively.
and i really think, for one of the first times, he took something away.
he usually is unwilling to take criticism and laughs it off.
but he listened. and he took it in. and i told him i'll support him.
i really think people who are judgemental of others for certain reasons have an issue.
and that is that they hate in others what they hate in themselves.
once this hate is eliminated, they aren't so judgemental.
and if all these people were constructively told about themselves, they'd be able to improve.
see, people know what's wrong with them, but they don't always have a label.
if you can admit to yourself that you have flaws, that's the first step.
the second is recognizing what they are and when and why you exhibit them.
i'm optimistic because i'm working on myself. i'm trying to be nicer and more real.
i'm drug free and i couldn't be happier about it.
i feel like i'm making a dramatic change.
i'm working on myself.
i always wanted to and needed to but i didn't know where to begin.
i really think i'm getting there.
i'm proud of myself for having the strength to do this for myself.
i'm here for anyone who needs me.
i don't think i've ever meant that more.
take care everyone.
love,
madeleine
PS: 10 months tomorrow =)