meat market
One of the weirdest weeks of my short life.
Going through and explaining things to peers, friends, and even educators/ bosses really helped me cement out some issues with my project for me. But more questions and Ideas came out of the experience than any answers I could have obtained.
The idea of success was the undercurrent through the whole weekend. My role as a daughter, student, artist, family member and future workforce member tore me to bits.
(I sold my first print this weekend. And had my first art show.)
I realized how much I love my friends but at the same time understood how solitary life can be.
This morning i also started putting into perspective my life ever since I did the addiction project. Since October I have been going out A lot. But what does it all mean when I haven't lassoed in artistic peers to bounce ideas off of or created lasting friendships or romantic relationships.
I see other people who are serial kissers of sorts. I have seen couples who come together. Couples who come apart. Women who grind and lash and cheat due to ethanol. I actually overheard a long and developed conversation about the "scenes". I compare this human chess game of popularity to buying $500$ purses.
The conversation between the two women recalled when a certain new girl became "new to the scene" she was fresh meat and everyone was on her.
Then one girl was describing her struggle with wanting to ":change scenes" They agreed that the friend would switch first and "talk up " the other girl.
So what is the point of this social planning? Is networking, sex, friends, fame the goal?
OR ALSO this "talking up" only applies to this pointless party, bar, artist, queer culture I have thrown myself into. Pretty much I meet a bunch of people at parties drink take some photos and never see those individuals during daylight hours.
At the same time I felt the exact thing that they were talking about when I walk into a new room. I was right there behind them hearing this. Still, I can relate to the element of attraction, I was draw to a majority of the individuals at the party. Each person had something that stood out about them. I don't know if I played into to the whole meat market head game.
You wouldn't need to "talk up" someone if they were in a position to actual converse with the people you come to a party to meet or hang out with.
Crazy Idea right?
Going through and explaining things to peers, friends, and even educators/ bosses really helped me cement out some issues with my project for me. But more questions and Ideas came out of the experience than any answers I could have obtained.
The idea of success was the undercurrent through the whole weekend. My role as a daughter, student, artist, family member and future workforce member tore me to bits.
(I sold my first print this weekend. And had my first art show.)
I realized how much I love my friends but at the same time understood how solitary life can be.
This morning i also started putting into perspective my life ever since I did the addiction project. Since October I have been going out A lot. But what does it all mean when I haven't lassoed in artistic peers to bounce ideas off of or created lasting friendships or romantic relationships.
I see other people who are serial kissers of sorts. I have seen couples who come together. Couples who come apart. Women who grind and lash and cheat due to ethanol. I actually overheard a long and developed conversation about the "scenes". I compare this human chess game of popularity to buying $500$ purses.
The conversation between the two women recalled when a certain new girl became "new to the scene" she was fresh meat and everyone was on her.
Then one girl was describing her struggle with wanting to ":change scenes" They agreed that the friend would switch first and "talk up " the other girl.
So what is the point of this social planning? Is networking, sex, friends, fame the goal?
OR ALSO this "talking up" only applies to this pointless party, bar, artist, queer culture I have thrown myself into. Pretty much I meet a bunch of people at parties drink take some photos and never see those individuals during daylight hours.
At the same time I felt the exact thing that they were talking about when I walk into a new room. I was right there behind them hearing this. Still, I can relate to the element of attraction, I was draw to a majority of the individuals at the party. Each person had something that stood out about them. I don't know if I played into to the whole meat market head game.
You wouldn't need to "talk up" someone if they were in a position to actual converse with the people you come to a party to meet or hang out with.
Crazy Idea right?