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i had a dream i was standing on my doorstep in the rain singing along to straylight run's version of 'peach, plum, pear'. i can still feel the warmth of the air and how heavy each drop felt. there was a face in the distance i can't recall and this horrible, horrible feeling of emptiness that i can't shake. this is not how i wanted to feel today. i wanted to be excited - i finally get to see irina after 5 months. but i haven't packed yet and i don't even want to get out of bed. i just want the warmth of the sun on my face, the fading scent of his hair on my pillow. i'll get there eventually. just not now.