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I had a tough night last night. I say "tough night" because I really don't know how else to describe it. I couldn't stop thinking.
SUN.FEB.13.05.11:21PM
I have a headache, my eyes are watering, my mind is wandering...
simple v. complex
elements, chemicals, explanations
--------------->overeating
consumption
heat
Why is all this happening to me, converging all at one, something (Prozac) cracked the dam and now I'm someone people will love for the surface but not reach out to or get close to or aspire to be or trade lives with.
untouchable
Perhaps I'm a pioneer, one of the few who come to the realization of TRUTH that life is not linear
I haven't thought it through completely
But now if life is not linear then our lives do not have a beginning or an end, they take on the shape of the universe and are infinite -- such a concept that can never be fully recognized by any single individual let alone the human race because we would combust
So we take things and give them names and titles and live our lives by them
namely time
time
time
and if this is all a myth then couldn't we somehow all be the same entity -- each person not a person but a FACET.
But we don't want to live our fictitious lives as facets of something bigger than we an imagine, bigger than us and government and individual freedoms
we
are
UNIFIED
or should be. This thing called "intelligence" had done this in some aspects but simultaneously compartmentalized us into concentrated groups of passionate contradictions.
Is there an after life?
There is no before, after.
Is there a God/dess? a higher power? multiple deities?
We are all Goddesses, Gods, all people and all things, all opinions and sexes and races and sexual orientations -- we are everything, coming from the oceans as our basis for life then evaporating, being born into cumulus clouds traveling the world then falling back into our birth in the form of raindrops.
We are...
all worlds.
all possibilities.
every form of life you can think, we are that.
We are...
more than just the individual, the dot/period.
more than just the individual life, the dash--
more than the concept of time, the line--------------------------------
more than that, more than the the cycles times operates in (the circle), or even the spheres I can't comprehend
but we are infinite.
And even that word is a lie because it, too, has a beginning and an end. It is the word which defines us.