random little thoughts
--> i am glad Miss Erin is alive and relatively breathing and back on livejournal because i missed her, regardless of what she might think. i think i heard somewhere she just laid down a smokin' violin track on someone's something-or-other.
-->yes, mrs. trioxin, i did get the picture and the card, thank you very much, much appreciated, mwah and all that jazz...and once i figure out this surgery-crap, i want to come for a visit.
-->speaking of surgery crap, i am freaking out about the potential of permanently losing my baby-carrier and being rendered "spayed" and that is haunting/lingering the recesses of my mind and i can't shake it and won't see the specialist until 8/16.
-->one of my colleagues brought in her 6 1/2 week old baby to work today and he literally got thrown into my arms, and i could NOT take it, and i tried to make everyone just fade away so i could not lose it in front of them (they, who do not know about my potential upcoming loss of fertility), and then he started to cry so i came out of my fog and handed him back to his mother and my STUPID RETARD OF AN ADMINISTRATIVE ASSISTANT said, "Oh, great--Jahneene made him cry just by holding him!" She is SO stupid. That statement caused me, 15 minutes later, to practically rip her head OFF when she told me for the second fucking time that the fax I tried to send didn't go through. I KNOW DUMBASS AND MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS AND SHUT THE HELL UP WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT ME AND MY ABILITY TO DO ANYTHING!! SHUT UP!
--> i then vented and almost cried with my other colleague Luann, who has dealt with infertility for years, and she was very reassuring and wanting to scratch said retard's eyes out for me, but i stopped her.
--> i would seriously like to introduce travis to john frieda. seriously.
--> i would also like to introduce him to a better goodwill rack than the one from which he has been shopping lately. although the tie is definitely a go.
-->why is a married man flirting with me on IM right now? who cares, let's roll with it, what other prospects do i have currently?
-->i wonder what justin is doing.
-->i am intensely jealous that chris got some of the cutest damned pictures of those pandas at the national zoo. when i visited a million years ago, they were in some shack with an ugly chainlink fence around it. now they have a damned paradisal OASIS.
-->i am SO behind with work. i can't focus or concentrate. i hate it when my brain fails me like this. i can't sleep either...too many hamsters running around in the wheel in my head.
-->ben and jerry's would be good right now. and a hammer.
-->yes, mrs. trioxin, i did get the picture and the card, thank you very much, much appreciated, mwah and all that jazz...and once i figure out this surgery-crap, i want to come for a visit.
-->speaking of surgery crap, i am freaking out about the potential of permanently losing my baby-carrier and being rendered "spayed" and that is haunting/lingering the recesses of my mind and i can't shake it and won't see the specialist until 8/16.
-->one of my colleagues brought in her 6 1/2 week old baby to work today and he literally got thrown into my arms, and i could NOT take it, and i tried to make everyone just fade away so i could not lose it in front of them (they, who do not know about my potential upcoming loss of fertility), and then he started to cry so i came out of my fog and handed him back to his mother and my STUPID RETARD OF AN ADMINISTRATIVE ASSISTANT said, "Oh, great--Jahneene made him cry just by holding him!" She is SO stupid. That statement caused me, 15 minutes later, to practically rip her head OFF when she told me for the second fucking time that the fax I tried to send didn't go through. I KNOW DUMBASS AND MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS AND SHUT THE HELL UP WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT ME AND MY ABILITY TO DO ANYTHING!! SHUT UP!
--> i then vented and almost cried with my other colleague Luann, who has dealt with infertility for years, and she was very reassuring and wanting to scratch said retard's eyes out for me, but i stopped her.
--> i would seriously like to introduce travis to john frieda. seriously.
--> i would also like to introduce him to a better goodwill rack than the one from which he has been shopping lately. although the tie is definitely a go.
-->why is a married man flirting with me on IM right now? who cares, let's roll with it, what other prospects do i have currently?
-->i wonder what justin is doing.
-->i am intensely jealous that chris got some of the cutest damned pictures of those pandas at the national zoo. when i visited a million years ago, they were in some shack with an ugly chainlink fence around it. now they have a damned paradisal OASIS.
-->i am SO behind with work. i can't focus or concentrate. i hate it when my brain fails me like this. i can't sleep either...too many hamsters running around in the wheel in my head.
-->ben and jerry's would be good right now. and a hammer.