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i dont write regular in here or anything, but i cant sleep so why not write some shit down about it. chris is on a trip with his friend in montana, left tuesday and they're there til friday night. well he called me from the airport when they got in, but i havent talked to him more than 30 seconds after that. havent heard a thing from him over 2 days now and im sad and kinda pissed off. i miss him im used to talking to him almost everyday i sleep better after he says goodnight and he hasnt called me. lots of things have gone through my mind why he wouldnt call... theres a lot going on and hes busy, they made friends up there and hes having such a good time a forgets to call me. i wont be suprised if he does say he just forgot, he does that often.. or maybe his phone really doesnt get great service up there in the mountains but there has to be some other way to get in touch with me, no? i dont wana talk forever just a hi, i miss you, how is your trip going. i just want to know hes thinking about me and now i kinda feel forgotten about. when i went away in january i thought about him i talked about him all time, even though i was having a great time with my bestest i couldnt wait to call him at night just to hear him say hi. i called him last night, nothing. i wasnt expecting him to answer just to see that i called and to call me later. and here i am still waiting and feeling stupid about it. every time something went off on my phone the past 2 days, i hoped it was him. to him im sure its nothing, some days and i'l see you when i see you after i get back. why cant they just understand how fucking much a little phone call can mean? is 2 minutes of your day that much of an inconvenience? i dont know what to say to him about it when he gets back about it, cause i know hes be so annoyed if i brought up him not calling me.. but it'll come out somehow cause its on my mind like crazy. i probably wont get a call from him til he gets back. but by then i wont be waiting for his call, i'll be out fucking drunk with my lauren forgetting about being sad over boyfriend issues!