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Ugh, bad weekend. I started the birth control shot on friday and it really screwed with my moods over the weekend, it was def a big adjustment. Chris was pretty down most of the weekend and I didnt talk to him much Friday night which I wanted to while I was feelin off, but he didn't feel like talking. I was stressed. Saturday was my dads birthday which was fun, went out to dinner with family and cousins at a cool cajun restaurant in west chester. Expensive as hell, we ran a $250 bar bill alone. Was suppose to meet Chris at a party at a friends, but when I called him he wanted to be alone and was going home. He wouldnt explain it to me, just that he was "depressed and stressed about things" which to him was the whole of it. Of course it was upsetting to me because I worry and I care, but he says "dont worry about me dont be upset just understand" Yeah right. Of course I understand evryone need some alone time to think now and then, but I think I would be filled in on it being his girlfriend. I guess I overreacted but I'm blaming the shot, fucking hormones. And other stupid things, I was supposed to pick him up sunday and I was ready and waiting and looking forward to seeing him, but he called me on his way home after he had a friend come get him. Didn't matter at all to him but he doesn't understand that little things like that can actually mean something to some people. Not that I was excited to pick him up, but just that I was going to see him. So I was pissed, he didnt get it. So on top of it all I was generally bitchy and unhappy when I got to his house. We talked a bit, he said some cute stuff but nothing too involved and that was "the end of the subject" for him. Which I guess means it should be for me too to him, but we argued later after I got home and called him. I try to understand his shit, he should try to do the same for me wouldnt you think. Uhhhhh, guys.  I feel alot better today, I guess I'm balancing out and getting used to this new stuff.. Chris is calling me from work later and I think we'll be better after we talk some more... I meant everything I said when we were arguing but I know I was over dramatic and it wasnt even under my control. I doubt he'll understand that too much but basically I have to apolozige a bit, I dont want to fight with him he's just hard to talk to sometimes.

Anyway, a bunch of us are going out tonight. Me and chris, his cousins visiting i think are coming out maybe his friend, lauren and a friend too. Bootleggers it is, we're dressing up too I'm excited lol. And we definitely all need a good night out and some drinks. It'll be a fun night.