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So I got on facebook today because idleness forces me to wander through cyberspace, and I came to the sad realization that I've haven't really stayed in touch with very many of my high school friends. I find it amusing that Kris was the first person to find me and request to be my friend, but his sister (who I use to think was my best friend) hasn't even bothered. I haven't heard or seen her since last summer. I also noticed that Pat still talks to Lindsay and Holly. Flipping through pictures I notice how many people have kept in contact over the past couple years.
Is it because I didn't go away to school? Because I've had to juggle school and two part-time jobs? Did the foundations begin to crumble before I left St. T? Is it my fault or theirs?
Ashley is the only person I've really been any good at seeing and that's largely due to her continuous efforts to make sure I stay in touch with her. It's probably because she's been so good about including me and staying close to me that I know she's easily moved into and above the place Sally once had. I just get caught up in all the things I need to get done and don't take the time to do things for myself and my relationships.
A lot of times I think I can trace it all the way back to when Ryan and I started going out. I became so preoccupied with maintaining that relationship, I worry that I may have neglected others. I know there were times I got invited to do things and didn't go even though I could have - preferring to spend time with Ryan - but I don't know if that's what started the collapse.
I'll write more later
Is it because I didn't go away to school? Because I've had to juggle school and two part-time jobs? Did the foundations begin to crumble before I left St. T? Is it my fault or theirs?
Ashley is the only person I've really been any good at seeing and that's largely due to her continuous efforts to make sure I stay in touch with her. It's probably because she's been so good about including me and staying close to me that I know she's easily moved into and above the place Sally once had. I just get caught up in all the things I need to get done and don't take the time to do things for myself and my relationships.
A lot of times I think I can trace it all the way back to when Ryan and I started going out. I became so preoccupied with maintaining that relationship, I worry that I may have neglected others. I know there were times I got invited to do things and didn't go even though I could have - preferring to spend time with Ryan - but I don't know if that's what started the collapse.
I'll write more later