"Grew up way too fast..."
Lisa came into town this weekend. It was fun, even though I was getting sick. It reminded me of the old days, when laughing was all that mattered to me.
I took a couple days off work to rest, and went back today. I think I might be getting sick of it already. It's fun sometimes, but I just get this feeling that I don't belong. And it's probably because I don't. Most people there are either in school or have no life at all, and I'm not either of those. I want to pursue my career, I'm just scared. I'm scared because I love doing it so much, and I don't want anyone to hold me back. Every job I've had, I have had someone constantly telling me what to do and how to do it, and this is the one thing I feel I do really well.
Things are good with Joey. It's been over six months now since we started dating. It's weird how everything happened like it did. I was single for so long, and then one day I decided I wanted to date again and I dated a few people, but for some reason I really liked Joey. I never really thought of him like that before until all of a sudden. We fight sometimes, and I know it's probably because I'm so high strung, but we always make up. Joey's really good about being the first to initiate an apology. I hold my grudges for a long time.
Although I am trying to get over my insecurities, I can see myself with him for a while. He's a very sweet boy.
Lisa asked me if we were going to get married. Of course, I said it wasn't legal for gays to be married. But I've been thinking about that question. If he were to ask me right now, and we could get married, I don't know what I would do. I would want to say yes I think. It would at least make me extremely happy if he asked me.
I would probably cry.
It's a nice thought.
I took a couple days off work to rest, and went back today. I think I might be getting sick of it already. It's fun sometimes, but I just get this feeling that I don't belong. And it's probably because I don't. Most people there are either in school or have no life at all, and I'm not either of those. I want to pursue my career, I'm just scared. I'm scared because I love doing it so much, and I don't want anyone to hold me back. Every job I've had, I have had someone constantly telling me what to do and how to do it, and this is the one thing I feel I do really well.
Things are good with Joey. It's been over six months now since we started dating. It's weird how everything happened like it did. I was single for so long, and then one day I decided I wanted to date again and I dated a few people, but for some reason I really liked Joey. I never really thought of him like that before until all of a sudden. We fight sometimes, and I know it's probably because I'm so high strung, but we always make up. Joey's really good about being the first to initiate an apology. I hold my grudges for a long time.
Although I am trying to get over my insecurities, I can see myself with him for a while. He's a very sweet boy.
Lisa asked me if we were going to get married. Of course, I said it wasn't legal for gays to be married. But I've been thinking about that question. If he were to ask me right now, and we could get married, I don't know what I would do. I would want to say yes I think. It would at least make me extremely happy if he asked me.
I would probably cry.
It's a nice thought.