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Long time no see, Lj,
So I constantly feel like I need to rest.. I don't know if I'm exhausted from working, from being depressed, from never really being alone or if there's something else. I feel as if I shouldn't be this exhausted all the time, but somehow all I really want to do is sleep all the time.
I can't find the words, the time or the motivation to fully express myself in writing or in words and it's incredibly frustrating to me to not be able to express myself. Hopefully I'll be able to some time soon.
I'm interviewing prospective new hires tomorrow morning and I hope it goes alright. I probably should talk to my boss a little more about them, but he's currently away at the moment in Mai Chau. The interview is generally just a way for both of us to feel each other out and whether this'll be a good fit for them. I think it's a bit hard because I'm not even sure if it's a good fit for me.
I go to Hanoi on Thursday, Friday and Saturday in order to buy:
- Pants
- Sweater
- Jacket
- Socks
- t shirts
- tights
- hat
- contact solution
- peanut butter
- backpack for thailand
- computer cleaner
- fucar
- bandaids?
maybe a few other things.
I'll be staying with my mom's friend Mishka, her husband and her kids. It'll be a nice mini vacation for me I guess.
I need to contemplate how much longer Ill be staying here. I'll definitely be staying until March 24th, when my 3 month visa expires. Maybe until June 24th if I plan on getting a 6 month visa. If I stay until then, I'd want 7 million Dong/month. I still haven't really figured out if I really do want to stay that long. There's something to be said about staying that long in this job... and I could travel with Garrett and his family for a bit, which I'd like to do. Then again, it's just so hard to commit to it.
I might be going to Australia after Thailand with Garrett (Jan 16-Feb 1st,) with Adrienne, but the plans are very unclear. I could look into working in Australia for a bit, which I don't think I'd be able to do unless I committed to a longer period of time. I wouldn't have qualms with that if I'd committed to working in Australia originally. I've been on the move, not really having a home for 4 months already and that's starting to wear on me. We'll see, maybe I'll feel differently after March.
So,
- staying here and working until March 24th when its finally getting warm, then traveling a bit on my own... Down Vietnam: Hoi An, Hue, Mui Ne, Da Lat, HCMC again. Cambodia: those caves that people keep talking about, Ankor Wat. Laos: just to go.... then going home.
- Staying here and working until June 24th, traveling with Garrett's family... or by myself
- Staying until March, going to Australia, getting the chest x-ray, paying for the visa, maybe getting that alcohol service degree, or the climbing education degree
I think the Australia one is a bit out of reach, unless I want to stay here longer. I'd rather just go home, get more experience with web design, zbrush etc. Getting a lot of therapy...
I think it's just deciding between staying here until march or staying here until June....
Gah, im so exhausted.
So I constantly feel like I need to rest.. I don't know if I'm exhausted from working, from being depressed, from never really being alone or if there's something else. I feel as if I shouldn't be this exhausted all the time, but somehow all I really want to do is sleep all the time.
I can't find the words, the time or the motivation to fully express myself in writing or in words and it's incredibly frustrating to me to not be able to express myself. Hopefully I'll be able to some time soon.
I'm interviewing prospective new hires tomorrow morning and I hope it goes alright. I probably should talk to my boss a little more about them, but he's currently away at the moment in Mai Chau. The interview is generally just a way for both of us to feel each other out and whether this'll be a good fit for them. I think it's a bit hard because I'm not even sure if it's a good fit for me.
I go to Hanoi on Thursday, Friday and Saturday in order to buy:
- Pants
- Sweater
- Jacket
- Socks
- t shirts
- tights
- hat
- contact solution
- peanut butter
- backpack for thailand
- computer cleaner
- fucar
- bandaids?
maybe a few other things.
I'll be staying with my mom's friend Mishka, her husband and her kids. It'll be a nice mini vacation for me I guess.
I need to contemplate how much longer Ill be staying here. I'll definitely be staying until March 24th, when my 3 month visa expires. Maybe until June 24th if I plan on getting a 6 month visa. If I stay until then, I'd want 7 million Dong/month. I still haven't really figured out if I really do want to stay that long. There's something to be said about staying that long in this job... and I could travel with Garrett and his family for a bit, which I'd like to do. Then again, it's just so hard to commit to it.
I might be going to Australia after Thailand with Garrett (Jan 16-Feb 1st,) with Adrienne, but the plans are very unclear. I could look into working in Australia for a bit, which I don't think I'd be able to do unless I committed to a longer period of time. I wouldn't have qualms with that if I'd committed to working in Australia originally. I've been on the move, not really having a home for 4 months already and that's starting to wear on me. We'll see, maybe I'll feel differently after March.
So,
- staying here and working until March 24th when its finally getting warm, then traveling a bit on my own... Down Vietnam: Hoi An, Hue, Mui Ne, Da Lat, HCMC again. Cambodia: those caves that people keep talking about, Ankor Wat. Laos: just to go.... then going home.
- Staying here and working until June 24th, traveling with Garrett's family... or by myself
- Staying until March, going to Australia, getting the chest x-ray, paying for the visa, maybe getting that alcohol service degree, or the climbing education degree
I think the Australia one is a bit out of reach, unless I want to stay here longer. I'd rather just go home, get more experience with web design, zbrush etc. Getting a lot of therapy...
I think it's just deciding between staying here until march or staying here until June....
Gah, im so exhausted.