Nothing Much
So, yeah, I know that it has been a long while since I have posted any kind of update as to how I am doing and what has been going on in my life. But, to be honest, there isn’t much to say...except for SSDD. (If you don’t understand, same story -- or another word -- different day.)
My time is spent between two areas as of late -- my family and Amtgard. My family comes 1st...always has and always will. And, for those that are wondering, family doesn’t always mean those by blood. I have a huge extended family that mean the world to me that I can’t be around due to life circumstances. But, that doesn’t mean they aren’t on my mind and in my heart.
As for B & I, we are still splitting our time between both of our families. We "live" with my mother, but visit his parents as much as possible. We are both grateful for the love and support that we have from our families. I just wish that we sometimes didn’t have to argue our points just to get them across with some family members. :(
Personally, he and I try our best to make time for one another...even in the midst of all the chaos. Sometimes I fear that he may not realize just how much I do love and need him. Yes, I know that may sound a little bizarre to some people, but that is the truth of the matter. I love him...more and more as each day passes. And, when I have my moments of doubt -- no matter the reason -- he is always there to remind me of all that I have done in my life...and what I am capable of doing. I love him more than I can tell him...but someday I may find the way.
What is even stranger, my adopted family has gotten a little closer here lately. There are certain members that B and I wish so much that we could spend more time with. The main thing that is stopping that right now is adequate transportation and of course, gas money. And, the ones that we are so close to right now happen to live at least an hour north of us. So, gas is a very important aspect of getting to spend time with them.
Anyway, I guess that is everything in a nutshell for tonight. Tomorrow brings a check-up for the baby! He will be 9 months old already. The time has flown by so quickly.