with lack of memory, i fail to question why
hi.
i've had quite the eventful weekend--here's the skinny:
friday:
at school, my teacher told me that i had been voted onto homecoming court by my sophomores. awesome.
after lauren got home from work, we went to bar louie with her co-workers for happy hour. lauren proceeded to down four mixed drinks rendering her unable to drive us home. i took over as DD...she's lucky she has me around.
anyway, i had a lot of fun...lauren works with some interesting people...it wasn't as awkward as i anticipated. we ended up talking about shrooms and viagra, then cassidy. my mad street knowledge and natural wit seemed to catch the eye of the already intoxicated stan. we left the bar to go home and change...
we ended up at shady grove and as promised, stan and his creepy friend were there. stan's a nice guy, so i allowed him to buy me drinks...too many drinks i guess. we left that bar for another one down the road and some more free drinks. i don't exactly remember when things went bad...i remember wanting to go to gina's and being overly annoyed by stan saying shit about ryan and about my tattoos and being a perv, but i was tolerating it. then he said/did something totally foul and i gave lauren my keys and made a quick exit. i don't think i even cared where i was going, i just wanted to leave.
i walked toward my house and tried to call ryan like a million times. i called anyone who i thought would talk. i remember being really scared--not because i was alone, i just felt shaken. so i cried. i got a hold of my brother and sat in someone's yard crying to him. i don't really recall what i told him, but i probably scared him a little. lauren called me and told me she was coming to find me with stan. i got up and continued home. on the corner of my street, a cat phantomed up to me. it was the best cat ever. i sat on the sidewalk for like 10 minutes with this cat. lauren and stan walked up, my cat left.
stan tried to console me but i stomped away. i stomped right up to the top of the steps and i fell asleep there. lauren got me to bed, and needless to say, i felt like shit all day yesterday.
i didn't cry because i was drunk, i cried because i felt guilty. i should have been more assertive when i told stan about ryan, i should have walked away from him, i should have refused the drinks. i hated myself for letting things escalate...i don't want to be in that position...it sucks. i really care about this relationship...and i don't want to do anything to mess it up.
anyway...
saturday:
i felt like balls. i worked until 10. the end.
sunday:
today i experienced my first car club meeting. ryan picked me up in his new mini cooper (which i find to be quite cute) and we met up with other mini cooper owners and drove the "fall foliage" route to seven springs where ryan presented information about beaverun quite eloquently.
the drive was absolutely beautiful. i know PA gets a lot of shit, but i was quite impressed by the western PA landscape at this time of year.
after the meeting, we spent some time seeing the sights of seven springs. we had pennsylvania beer and kettle corn. it was lovely. it was also freezing. but all in all, it was a wonderful way to spend a sunday.
briefly
tomorrow is open house so i get to sleep in!
i will officially be in state college november 4-6!
lauren's trout pond is stinking up our house and she loves the shit out of grey's anatomy!
i've had quite the eventful weekend--here's the skinny:
friday:
at school, my teacher told me that i had been voted onto homecoming court by my sophomores. awesome.
after lauren got home from work, we went to bar louie with her co-workers for happy hour. lauren proceeded to down four mixed drinks rendering her unable to drive us home. i took over as DD...she's lucky she has me around.
anyway, i had a lot of fun...lauren works with some interesting people...it wasn't as awkward as i anticipated. we ended up talking about shrooms and viagra, then cassidy. my mad street knowledge and natural wit seemed to catch the eye of the already intoxicated stan. we left the bar to go home and change...
we ended up at shady grove and as promised, stan and his creepy friend were there. stan's a nice guy, so i allowed him to buy me drinks...too many drinks i guess. we left that bar for another one down the road and some more free drinks. i don't exactly remember when things went bad...i remember wanting to go to gina's and being overly annoyed by stan saying shit about ryan and about my tattoos and being a perv, but i was tolerating it. then he said/did something totally foul and i gave lauren my keys and made a quick exit. i don't think i even cared where i was going, i just wanted to leave.
i walked toward my house and tried to call ryan like a million times. i called anyone who i thought would talk. i remember being really scared--not because i was alone, i just felt shaken. so i cried. i got a hold of my brother and sat in someone's yard crying to him. i don't really recall what i told him, but i probably scared him a little. lauren called me and told me she was coming to find me with stan. i got up and continued home. on the corner of my street, a cat phantomed up to me. it was the best cat ever. i sat on the sidewalk for like 10 minutes with this cat. lauren and stan walked up, my cat left.
stan tried to console me but i stomped away. i stomped right up to the top of the steps and i fell asleep there. lauren got me to bed, and needless to say, i felt like shit all day yesterday.
i didn't cry because i was drunk, i cried because i felt guilty. i should have been more assertive when i told stan about ryan, i should have walked away from him, i should have refused the drinks. i hated myself for letting things escalate...i don't want to be in that position...it sucks. i really care about this relationship...and i don't want to do anything to mess it up.
anyway...
saturday:
i felt like balls. i worked until 10. the end.
sunday:
today i experienced my first car club meeting. ryan picked me up in his new mini cooper (which i find to be quite cute) and we met up with other mini cooper owners and drove the "fall foliage" route to seven springs where ryan presented information about beaverun quite eloquently.
the drive was absolutely beautiful. i know PA gets a lot of shit, but i was quite impressed by the western PA landscape at this time of year.
after the meeting, we spent some time seeing the sights of seven springs. we had pennsylvania beer and kettle corn. it was lovely. it was also freezing. but all in all, it was a wonderful way to spend a sunday.
briefly
tomorrow is open house so i get to sleep in!
i will officially be in state college november 4-6!
lauren's trout pond is stinking up our house and she loves the shit out of grey's anatomy!