Band dork nostalgia
I miss music. I just wanna put that out there.
I thought, after a year of not playing an instrument, pretty much AT ALL, that I would get over it. Buuuuuuuut I was wrong. I was lying in bed thinking about how much I miss being part of a musical group of some sort... Nothing beats that feeling of being on stage and playing something you really love.
It's like, I'm completely content with my life the way it is. I love my job, I have a great husband and house, etc. But sometimes I wish there was something I could do to unwind that I know I will always be excited about. I mean, nothing really excites me that much anymore. Like even at ECU, getting a new marching band show and learning/teaching it was always so exciting to me. And getting my friends and family to come watch it always made me so happy.
Apparently nothing really compares to that.
I've been researching community bands and stuff, but trying to fit something into my work schedule when, say, it's "every thursday night", is really hard. Would it make me happy? Yes. Would I generally be in a better mood because of it? Probably. And would I have a hobby/something I really love to do? Yes.
Should I just do it, then?
I guess I'm just scared. Scared I'll take on too much. I've done that so much to myself in the past. And so often after working I'm just SO tired the rest of the week. How can I guarantee that I can really commit to this, and really commit to the time to practice, etc?? I guess I just don't want to half-ass anything.
I totally would rock at it. Most of them don't even require auditions. I came from a really good high school band and had a really freakin awesome teacher Heidi... And in college I was 1st chair/section leader/piccolo in symphonic band, not to mention section leader/undergrad teaching assistant in marching band. If anyone's qualified, it's me. And with a little practice I could just dig right in.
I think I just needed to put this out there. Maybe try to convince myself that I should/ should not do this. Like, I know I would never have made it as a music major at school. I know if I was FORCED to do it, I would've begun to resent it. But having it be my "thing to do for fun", my "outlet" for all my nursing school stuff, made me still love it. I was being nostalgic and thinking about high school, and was talking about going to an ECU football game this fall (just to see the band, of course), and I guess it got me thinking, if I miss it this much, shouldn't I do something about it?
There are a bunch of community bands I found in the area: there's one in Raleigh, Cary, Holly Springs, and Durham. And they all rehearse every Wednesday or Thursday night.
I guess I just want to put it out there... Anyone have any suggestions? Is this something that I should do? Something that will make me happier or something that will add to my stress load? Or both lol. Maybe I should just pull out my instrument and see how it goes. Honestly, if I couldn't get to sleep because of this, it must really be bothering me.
Have you noticed that I only write in this thing when I have something completely pointless to ramble about? I'm sure no one will even respond, but I guess I'm hoping getting it out of my system will help enough. Anyway, just putting it out there... Hope everyone had a good 4th weekend! Thanks for listening/reading!
I thought, after a year of not playing an instrument, pretty much AT ALL, that I would get over it. Buuuuuuuut I was wrong. I was lying in bed thinking about how much I miss being part of a musical group of some sort... Nothing beats that feeling of being on stage and playing something you really love.
It's like, I'm completely content with my life the way it is. I love my job, I have a great husband and house, etc. But sometimes I wish there was something I could do to unwind that I know I will always be excited about. I mean, nothing really excites me that much anymore. Like even at ECU, getting a new marching band show and learning/teaching it was always so exciting to me. And getting my friends and family to come watch it always made me so happy.
Apparently nothing really compares to that.
I've been researching community bands and stuff, but trying to fit something into my work schedule when, say, it's "every thursday night", is really hard. Would it make me happy? Yes. Would I generally be in a better mood because of it? Probably. And would I have a hobby/something I really love to do? Yes.
Should I just do it, then?
I guess I'm just scared. Scared I'll take on too much. I've done that so much to myself in the past. And so often after working I'm just SO tired the rest of the week. How can I guarantee that I can really commit to this, and really commit to the time to practice, etc?? I guess I just don't want to half-ass anything.
I totally would rock at it. Most of them don't even require auditions. I came from a really good high school band and had a really freakin awesome teacher Heidi... And in college I was 1st chair/section leader/piccolo in symphonic band, not to mention section leader/undergrad teaching assistant in marching band. If anyone's qualified, it's me. And with a little practice I could just dig right in.
I think I just needed to put this out there. Maybe try to convince myself that I should/ should not do this. Like, I know I would never have made it as a music major at school. I know if I was FORCED to do it, I would've begun to resent it. But having it be my "thing to do for fun", my "outlet" for all my nursing school stuff, made me still love it. I was being nostalgic and thinking about high school, and was talking about going to an ECU football game this fall (just to see the band, of course), and I guess it got me thinking, if I miss it this much, shouldn't I do something about it?
There are a bunch of community bands I found in the area: there's one in Raleigh, Cary, Holly Springs, and Durham. And they all rehearse every Wednesday or Thursday night.
I guess I just want to put it out there... Anyone have any suggestions? Is this something that I should do? Something that will make me happier or something that will add to my stress load? Or both lol. Maybe I should just pull out my instrument and see how it goes. Honestly, if I couldn't get to sleep because of this, it must really be bothering me.
Have you noticed that I only write in this thing when I have something completely pointless to ramble about? I'm sure no one will even respond, but I guess I'm hoping getting it out of my system will help enough. Anyway, just putting it out there... Hope everyone had a good 4th weekend! Thanks for listening/reading!