Ten Day Meme: Day One
Oh Gosh, I am so behind. But I finally worked up the courage to post the first entry. Which, jeez, is scary to write. But here goes.
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.
1. Wow. You are, without a shadow of a doubt, the most important person I have ever chosen to have in my life, and the most important person I'm glad I have in my life. You mean the world to me, and I really hope you know that even if it's impossible for me to express how truly important you are. I love you so much it hurts, like I'm breathing in too much air. You are brilliant, amazing, strong, funny, beautiful, and frustrating, and you are going to have an amazing life. I hope that I am a part of it for as long as possible. 2010 is the best year of my life so far because I met you.
2. We've had a lot of problems, but I'm really glad I know you. Being stuck with you in my life has taught me a lot, and even when we disagree I'm glad we disagreed and talked about it and worked through it. I respect you tremendously, even though I've hated you at times. I would defend your right to be the person you are to my death, even if I sometimes argue against the decisions you make.
3. I worry about you a lot. You are consistently frustrating to me and I wish we could communicate on a deeper level. I think it's your fault that we can't, but sometimes I blame myself. Please open up. If not to me, than to someone.
4. I also worry that we don't communicate as deeply as we could, but I'm pretty sure this is my fault. I respect you and like you tremendously, and the way you treat me makes me feel really good about myself. I am sorry if I sometimes close down around you. It's just the way I am.
5. You are great. My feelings towards you have changed a lot over the years, but I am very glad to have you as a friend. I cannot begin to fathom some of the choices you make with your life, and sometimes I think I judge you because I wouldn't behave the same way in your situation. That is stupid of me, and I obviously do not have any right to make judgments about the way you live. I also absolutely love the way you treat me, as a person.
6. I wish things had been better between us, but I'm glad they're good now. I think we had to fuck things up to get to where we are, and I like where we are.
7. I believed you, and I was really into you. Maybe you weren't even lying at the time, but what you said became a lie and you didn't tell me. I fucking hate that. There's always going to be a lot of hurt inside me when I talk to you, but I know I'll never be able to stay away. Nor should I. Because in the end I still like you a lot and I want to be around you more, no matter what.
8. I talk to my therapist about you all the time. How weird is that? I don't know why, but I'm so fucking hung up on our relationship. I think you're great, and I count you among my best friends, but sometimes I just hate you so so much, and I have a lot of trouble figuring out why.
9. You used to mean everything to me. What changed? I hate the person I am around you, so I don't want you around, and that is really really sad.
10. I wish you belonged to me.
EDIT: If you want to know which one, if any, are about you, feel free to ask. I will probably tell you.
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.
1. Wow. You are, without a shadow of a doubt, the most important person I have ever chosen to have in my life, and the most important person I'm glad I have in my life. You mean the world to me, and I really hope you know that even if it's impossible for me to express how truly important you are. I love you so much it hurts, like I'm breathing in too much air. You are brilliant, amazing, strong, funny, beautiful, and frustrating, and you are going to have an amazing life. I hope that I am a part of it for as long as possible. 2010 is the best year of my life so far because I met you.
2. We've had a lot of problems, but I'm really glad I know you. Being stuck with you in my life has taught me a lot, and even when we disagree I'm glad we disagreed and talked about it and worked through it. I respect you tremendously, even though I've hated you at times. I would defend your right to be the person you are to my death, even if I sometimes argue against the decisions you make.
3. I worry about you a lot. You are consistently frustrating to me and I wish we could communicate on a deeper level. I think it's your fault that we can't, but sometimes I blame myself. Please open up. If not to me, than to someone.
4. I also worry that we don't communicate as deeply as we could, but I'm pretty sure this is my fault. I respect you and like you tremendously, and the way you treat me makes me feel really good about myself. I am sorry if I sometimes close down around you. It's just the way I am.
5. You are great. My feelings towards you have changed a lot over the years, but I am very glad to have you as a friend. I cannot begin to fathom some of the choices you make with your life, and sometimes I think I judge you because I wouldn't behave the same way in your situation. That is stupid of me, and I obviously do not have any right to make judgments about the way you live. I also absolutely love the way you treat me, as a person.
6. I wish things had been better between us, but I'm glad they're good now. I think we had to fuck things up to get to where we are, and I like where we are.
7. I believed you, and I was really into you. Maybe you weren't even lying at the time, but what you said became a lie and you didn't tell me. I fucking hate that. There's always going to be a lot of hurt inside me when I talk to you, but I know I'll never be able to stay away. Nor should I. Because in the end I still like you a lot and I want to be around you more, no matter what.
8. I talk to my therapist about you all the time. How weird is that? I don't know why, but I'm so fucking hung up on our relationship. I think you're great, and I count you among my best friends, but sometimes I just hate you so so much, and I have a lot of trouble figuring out why.
9. You used to mean everything to me. What changed? I hate the person I am around you, so I don't want you around, and that is really really sad.
10. I wish you belonged to me.
EDIT: If you want to know which one, if any, are about you, feel free to ask. I will probably tell you.